Suicidal thoughts keeping me awake?
You need to see someone urgently to talk about this. Try a counsellor, therapist, clergyman/woman, or call the Samaritans (suuicide hotline). You dont say if your Dad is alive or not. If he is, you should talk to him and see how he is and see if you can help him. You may be unconsciously picking up on stuff going on in his mind. Hope you feel better soon :-)
Any tips on how to stop suicidal thoughts?
I have been on depression tablets for 7 months and took counselling, I stopped self-harming 2 months back. Over the past month things have been going down hill, I feel like Ive let my self down, and everything is such an effort. I keep having suicidal thoughts, overdose, jumping from the roof etc, im sure I wont do it, but it plays on my mind 24/7. Ive upped my dose of tablets, as I feel to ashamed go to the doctors, guess im scared what he will say and make me go back to the counselor. I would then feel worse im sure and such a failure.
Keep having disturbing thoughts in my head?
Over the past 2-3 years I've been having some horrible thoughts in my head. These thoughts are much worse at times when I'm in a bad mood. The thoughts I have are really hard to shake off when I get them, and cause some distress to me. I haven't really told my family about it because they'll think I'm mad. Some of the thoughts I get are: - An urge to swear/punch someone who is talking to me, even though they haven't done anything wrong. - When I'm asked to read aloud in class, I get a massive impulse to swear at loud - Whenever I see a knife lying on the counter in my kitchen, I have to put it in the sink because I get an impulse to cut myself/someone else. - Before I go to bed I have to make sure everything is off of the floor and make sure everything is perfect. If I don't do this, it will stay in my mind and I'll get a thought that tells me: "If you don't do this you'll have nightmares tonight" or "something bad will happen close to you". Sometimes I'll get even worse thoughts than this, I'll get "images" in my head about people being killed in horrible ways, and bad things happening to the people I love. These thoughts can bother me when I'm in bed trying to sleep, and it can keep me awake as I do not want bad dreams about these bad situations. To not have bad dreams about the bad situations, I have to keep telling myself that I won't have bad dreams. It works most of the time, but it can be a chore doing it every night, as I just want to fall asleep. This happens with the thought where I have to make sure everything is perfect before bed. I don't want to think of these thoughts (I could never hurt anyone) but I find that I keep thinking about them to try and wear the bad thoughts out until they don't bother me anymore. It doesn't work, and these thoughts still bother me. Does anyone know what I may be experiencing?
Scary thoughts when I close my eyes?
This has been going on for 2 years. Im tierd of it. Every noght I end up staying up until 4 due to all the scary images in my head. Im a teen and im really out of it. I feel like im crazy, I see the weirdest things ever. Ive seen myself killing myself and ive seen me killing loved ones. Im so scared. Most images remind me of skeletons jumping at. This all happens before I sleep and sometimes when im in the shower I panic due to the images and RUN out the shower without anything. I need help. Please. This all happens to me when i close my eyes. Dont judge me for my spelling structure. Im just so tierd and scared.