Why do I hate talking to and being around people?
Sometimes I get a bit down about it when I see people going out with friends on nights out, etc. and have hundreds of pictures on Facebook. But I love being alone. I live with my boyfriend and only have one friend which I don't see very often - which is fine with me because social interaction physically and mentally tires me out. I started a new job recently and work in a very small group of people who all get on really well with each other. Sometimes I will be left alone with one of them and it can be very awkward as I don't want to/can't be bothered speaking to them so there is a lot of awkward silences. It just tires me out speaking to people and I'm not interested in small talk. I always feel as though people think I'm an idiot and talk about me behind my back because people seem to find it hard to carry on a conversation with me and lose interest. Is this normal introverted behaviour or am I just weird?
Why do girls always hate me, I feel so lonely?
I'm a very nice and caring person, and quite shy, I don't gossip about anyone and I am always too nice to people for some reason, people say I get it from my mother. Even the people who bully me I continue to be nice too and it baffles me. In my last school I was severely bullied and all the girls hated me, even those who did not know me, one girl even used to smile and say 'I made her cry' as I was really sensitive, she used to be a close friend but I won a modelling competition and she turned on me. Girls used to start fights with me all the time and give me dirty looks, I felt suicidal and hated my life. I eventually moved schools and the first few months were great, but now I always feel really left out. My 'closest' friends didn't invite me to their parties, and one girl I was close to gives me dirty looks all the time, and I haven't done anything to her. There was also one girl who I used to be really close to, then all of a sudden she just stopped talking to me. I think it might be because the guy she has a crush on hates me (girls in my last school got him to hate me) so maybe she feels like she has to hate me too. She totally blanks me and rolls her eyes when she sees me, then yesterday I beat her in a race and she loves track, today she said 'Oh look who it is..' really harshly when I walked past her. I just don't understand. Why can't I ever be good enough? How come I have to always be hated when I am never mean to anyone? As far as I'm concerned I'm just a shy geek...why would they hate me? It hurts so much. I feel so alone. **I probably sound full of myself but I am not conceited at all, sorry if it seems like I am. I haven't even told any of the people at my new school I won a modelling competition, and I never brag or whine to people. I am just writing all this stuff here to get it off my chest. Thanks for understanding**
Why do some people not like talking and socializing?
I don't understand why some people like to be alone all the time. I really want to understand though. I have only had a handful of experiences in my life where i haven't wanted to socialize. I don't see how anyone could be introverted by choice. My guess is they're shy or too misrible from something or another. I just don't get it when people hate me because i never want to stop socializing or why it annoys teachers so much if we are done with everything in that class and everyone is just sitting around waiting for the bell to ring and start talking. Whenever i get homework and have time to do it at school i rarerly do because i would rather talk with people at school and wait to do it when i get home. Then i see people who just sit by themselves, rarely talk to anyone, just sit and listen to music, and i don't get how they can be happy with that. I'm not anyware close to well liked or popular and i used to have quite bad attention seeking problems(still do but not quite as extreme). Almost anyone i walk up to in my school has an "oh crap he's here" attitude whenever i get near them. I really enjoy listening to other people's problems (if you guessed i really enjoy browsing yahoo answers). It's like i can almost get it but then not really when it comes to understanding anti-social people. I really want to know why some people are anti-social in general.