When i make myself sick i cough up blood- normal?
Hey, don't worry I won't lecture you about making yourself sick, I did it too and I cut my wrists. I had a voice inside my head and it was the same- extreme headaches like constant. I can tell you now at 16 years old having been through all that it's hellish and it's probably a really scary time for you, now about this coughing up blood: how do you make yourself sick? I know it's different for each person but do use the back of toothbrush or spoon? Or your fingers? Or do you eat things you know will make you sick? I ask this because once I accidentally scraped the back of my throat with my nails because they were longer than usual- I coughed up a fair amount of blood and it hurt to talk for days! If you don't think it's that then it could be more serious and I suggest you go and see a doctor, just to figure out what's up, they are bound legally to keep everything you say confidential and then you have the right to refuse treatment if that is what you want. If you don't want to see a doctor you could try calling a children's helpline not sure they would know though. Hang in there it gets easier I promise, and if you cut yourself again I won't lecture you, but be careful, keep your wound clean, keep everything clean and dress it properly. What I did was I used a blunt edge like the edge on the tops of moisturizers and toothpastes, and cut repeatedly so I would feel pain but the wounds were less serious. And about your friend no, I don't think she genuine but maybe she doesn't know how to react so she lies to make it seem like she knows what you're going through? If you ever need to talk don't hesitate to drop an email- you can do that from my profile xo
I cut myself and deeply regret it?
Last night I was feeling extremely down and hurt, many personal reasons but probably more hormonal than anything. But nevertheless, I grabbed a pair of scissors and cut my left wrist 3 times going in all different directions. At first, I didn't think I'd regret it. I thought it'd actually be cool because I've always wanted a scar - many people have had broken bones or something major happen to them that left a scar, nothing major has happened to me AT ALL. So to have a scar was pretty cool for me. I didn't do them deep, I didn't have the guts to take the pain, but just enough to leave an open wound but no blood. I had a shower and all the redness went away, they were barely noticeable. Except now I've just woken up and looked and they're all yellow and pink, the little wounds have healed up just a little bit now. But I deeply regret doing it. I'm crying as if they do leave scars .. how in the hell do I explain it to my parents, especially my Mom. She's got enough trouble on her plate right now, she doesn't need to know I had one wild rampage and self harmed. I'm going to put a big band-aid over it, to help the healing process and blame it on the cat for now. But please help me, I really do regret it and it's getting me down so much, what can I do to help the cuts? Should I be honest with my mom? if I am .. it'll hurt her so much, she thought I was so much more sensible than that, but then again, I can't exactly lie because cat scratches don't normally leave scars like this.
I accidentally cut myself?
I've been obsessively thinking about this for a few days. I was picking up pieces of a broken wine glass and cut my finger. But I'm not obsessing b/c I think it's infected or even b/c it hurt, actually it didn't hurt at all. I'm obsessing b/c I kind of liked how it felt and liked looking at the blood. Up until now I've hated when I got a cut, I would cry even if it was a paper cut, i just feel a little weird liking the feel and surprised that I didn't cry, I've been having weird moodswings but for two days I've been feeling really anxious and depressed. My anxiety is making me think about cutting myself, I mean it didn't hurt, I liked the feeling it gave me and couldn't do anything but look at it. I know self harm is wrong but Idk why I want to do it. when I was younger I was lonely, I have two older brothers but they never wanted to be bothered with me and my mom and dad were either out or arguing.so I used to think about killing myself (never told anyone) but I'd just think 'No I can't do it' but the thought was always there. Just like now, I feel like it won't be a Big deal to cut a few times but I know it's wrong.like I want to but then again I don't.idk What's going on with me I've been crying on and off all day (it happens out of nowhere) I feel paranoid and I just can't deal with it.can someone tell me What's wrong? Am I depressed? Has my anxiety gotten worse? I don't want attention it's actually the opposite,my thoughts are really confusing right now.
Licking your own blood?? is it bad for your body?
First of all, self-mutilation is a symptom of some very serious psych issues regardless of your reasoning. It is not normal behavior for a human being or really most any type of mammal to intentionally inflict such wounds to their own body for no medical reason. There is something to be said for re-direction or misdirection in regards to pain and stress and with that being said it is likely that you could get some pain relief by making your brain focus on another pain (I.e. having a bad knee pain and then smashing your hand in a door would transmit the primary and most powerful pain signal thus keeping the other or more minor one from getting through as easily). However this is a tactic that really is not one to be recommended, especially in our medically advanced age where we have a plethora of medication and therapeutic techniques to counter stress, depression, etc. In regards to the blood itself causing you harm then no. Unless you were to drink gallons of the stuff in one sitting, which would not be possible to do of your own blood, then it is not going to make you sick. Some people do have a response which is triggered by the sight of blood and one of the main side effects of this response is feeling clammy and/or fainting. So if you are in that group of people then it is possible you could faint and hit your head or something, but other than that no issue from the standpoint of blood on you. In regards to putting your mouth onto an open laceration well this poses some risk. Your mouth and saliva contain a high amount of bacteria and microbial contaminants and by putting your mouth to an open wound can potentially cause those bacteria to infiltrate into the opening and into your blood stream and surrounding tissue. This can lead to infection which is never a good thing. If you must continue to do this, then at least wash your wound off well and then disinfect it with some alcohol or peroxide afterwords.
How does it feel when you cut your wrist?
You know that feeling when you finally get to pee after holding it in for what seemed like forever? Till you had to do the ‘pee dance’?That relief. The sensation of letting it all out, being able to feel something other than numbness.Depression is a funny little thing. It attacks you with so, so, so much. And then one day, you feel nothing. Nothing at all. Like a blank canvas waiting to be drawn on.So you paint lines across your skin.You feel a pinch. Blood oozes out of your fresh cut. Gosh, the weight is lifted off your shoulders. You want to paint more.And you do.More blood oozes out, slowly but steadily…You catch yourself in a trance. You realize your wrist is full of cuts. A thought like this may cross your mind: More… Where else can I…And something goes off in your brain. You're snapped back to reality. How am I going to hide this from my family/friends/loved ones?Then a pang of regret and guilt may hit you. You think about the faces of the ones who care about you when they see your wounds. Perhaps you panic, perhaps you fall into a deeper pit of helplessness.You go on the internet to search ways to conceal the evidence and you discover that there are so many others like you. Who are in pain. Who are suffering in similar ways. You are not alone.So you pick yourself up and clean the area. You somehow feel better. Slightly better.Then, a day passes. An event stirs you up and you feel ever so overwhelmed.Perhaps. Just perhaps, you think “I want to- No. I need to cut.”.Eventually, you find yourself covered in scars. You wish to stop, but cannot. One simple stroke led to so much more.Tl;dr: It only feels good in that moment, when you are so caught up in the act. Afterwards, I felt mostly regret.