Should I feel bad for my student's suicide?
This is my story, and I could have been that girl. I was molested by my brother for around 5 years. I don't know for sure when it started b/c at some point I blocked it out. After my first known suicide attempt, I saw a counselor for several years. Never did it come up that I'd been molested (by that point, my mind had already blocked the abuse). Several years later with another counselor, he asked me "why are you so depressed?" I told him I didnt know. At the end of the initial visit he told me that I *did* know the reason. Turns out we both were right, just a matter of timing - I really didn't know about the abuse until the memories came back at age 21. Anyway, had I succeeded on my suicide attempts, I would never have wanted my counselors to blame themselves. I took pains to keep my private life private, and my mind fought tooth-and-nail to keep me from knowing the truth. Your student could have been the same way, and she could have even found a reasonable (non-abuse) explanation for her pregnancy. I wish you relief from the guilt you feel. As several people pointed out, you did reach out to the girl and she did know that someone out there really cared about her and would cry at her funeral. She reached her breaking point (no one can know what tripped it) and knew that she wanted to let you know how much you meant to her. That was a big step for her. If you could reach this girl, who knows what you could do with future teenagers? Please keep this in mind while you are recovering from a horrible experience. You are in my prayers (and I don't say that very often).
My best friend committed suicide?
She was like my sister. She was there for me when my parents were fighting, and she stood up for me when I was bullied. We would spend every minute of every day together. She and I had so many inside jokes, we would say one word and crack up. We would have sleepovers every Friday night, and her locker was right next to mine.her parents were lovely, they treat me like a second daughter. She even had a space in my closet where she kept her clothes because she stayed over here so much. But now she's gone. She committed suicide at exactly 12:00 am. She wrote a suicide letter saying that she loved me (as a friend) and that she couldn't deal with the pain anymore. I feel so guilty. I could have helped her! I never knew that she was depressed! We told each other everything, she knew all of my darkest secrets and I knew all of hers. But I didn't know how much pain she was in the entire time! I feel like the worst best friend ever. Her parents have asked me to speak at her funeral. How can I ease the pain of all of this? I am sobbing as I write this right now. Please help me!!! RIP Penelope. Love you baby P.S. I swear to god if you say anything rude like "she had it coming" I will report you. You have no idea how much pain I am in right now.
Why is my local Gender Identity Clinic finally paying attention to my case? (Very long)?
I am not entirely sure about this, but there's a good chance that there's something that legally prevents minors from having gender reassignment surgery in all cases but genital mutilation (sometimes happens after botched circumcisions) and ambiguous genitalia, which may be why they were wary of taking your case. However, I do agree that they should have offered counseling services for your family, as that wouldn't affect your resolve in having the procedure done. That being said, I don't know if your mother's opinion would have changed. I hope that some day she will realize that it's most important that her child be happy in her own skin, even if it's not exactly the skin she was born with.
Ex girlfriend blames me for everything in the relationship.?
No one is entirely to blame for anything in relationships unless the person had malicious intentions going in to it from the beginning (like a con artist or something) but it's obvious you were invested in her and even gave her the benefit of the doubt so many times despite the people around you that you trust most, telling you to otherwise. It will take time but just forget about her she doesn't even sound like she's worth the trouble (no offence) and note that being bipolar runs in the family.. yes its true. Just think better over now than never, dust off your shoulders and go about your business. Just think good lesson learned.
I'm really annoyed by my poser/copycat best-friend.?
I guess you could say I'm emotionally depressed. I've been through a lot and am still going through much: .I have dealt with an abusive stepfather for 2 years, my mom divorced him 3 months ago and hes across the country now .My little sister is DYING (heart failure) .My cousin and uncle have cancer and they too are DYING (30% chance of surviving) .I'm a failure, everything I do I mess up, I'm failing the grade when I used to be a straight-A student. .I can't seem to get out of trouble .Rumors are spread about me .I have a few friends, everyone else hates me .I've been sexually harassed by guys at school and a janitor .My mom used to talk about me to my older siblings, telling them to stop harassing me, that I'm depressed and may lead to suicide. We don't talk much anymore because I screw up allot. The way that I cope with how I feel is I write poems and songs explaining my feelings. I also have a band where I am the lead singer and i share my songs. This is what my friend is doing: .She is starting to dress like me .She is starting to copy my hair style .I showed her my songs and poems and the next day she shows me her own poems that she said she wrote the night before (they are very much like mine and she tried to tell me that I have no reason to write such poems) .She is trying to steal my band away from me, music is pretty much my life and she knows how important it is to me. My friend has a great life, she is so pretty and has the perfect bf, her parents are the best. The only thing that upsets her is that for the next 6 months she has to go through therapy for her legs. But she only told her 5 best friends and no one teases her about it. Everyone, and I do mean everyone, loves her. She is always so happy.