Things to do when you want to kill yourself?
In panic mode right now. Don't want to call the suicide line or a therapist or family. I just can't deal with life right now. My brain wants to explode. I can't even cry right now. I just want to bash my head in the wall. Btw I'm 20 and have had depression since 15.
How do you get your boyfriend’s attention without asking for it? He's too busy playing his video games.
Video games are a mental stimulator. They trigger the parts of the brain that give immediate satisfaction, and most gamers can avoid sex longer than they would ever avoid video games.Your man has seen you naked. If you're like most people, you probably hangout naked a lot anyway, not only when you want sex, or attention. So seeing you around in sexy underwear or being naked is not giving him any clues.If your boyfriend is a typical gamer, chances are he's got a headset on. This headset picks up a lot of noise. If you start masterbating and “making all the noises”, all his friends will hear you. You'll embarrass not only yourself, but him as well.As a gamer, I can tell you right now that when you're in an “important” match (I use the word important loosely), you don't want to just turn it off for anything. Sex will always be available, you're in a relationship (video games will always be available too, but gamers take games seriously).Men don't pick up on clues. Walking around rubbing your lady parts won't do much. Chances are, he's focussed on the TV or computer and will not even look at you. And if your relationship is like some, he might just think you want to masterbate and not actually have sex (some people prefer this… it's like a fetish to watch, etc). Wait until he gets off, or before he starts, and talk to him about your needs. Communication is key.Let him know how you're feeling. Ask him to spend 2–3 nights per week dedicated to you, and this does not mean sex. It can be watching a movie, or just talking, or going out. Explain to him that as a woman, you crave physical and emotional closeness to feel loved and you enjoy spending time with him because you love him.Then, and this is very important, you need to find a hobby that will keep you busy. Personally, I suggest getting your own gaming system and getting online with your man. But if you prefer painting, reading, knitting, or yoga then by all means do those things. It is unrealistic to expect your man to give up his hobbies for you, but a few days a week are reasonable. During these few days you can bond and deepen your relationship.If he's not willing to spend at least 2 nights per week with you, and you truly feel your needs are not being met then you might want to consider a new partner. Just remember that no one wants a relationship that requires giving someone your full attention every single day.Good luck!