I act like a different person at night?
I might sound a little crazy here but, at night I act like a totally different person than I do during the day. During the day I am somewhat active, I am social, and I am never depressed and I don't have a low self-esteem unlike The night I get very depressed, anti-social and when I am social I complain about myself, I am always depressed a few nights ago I actually ended up crying myself to sleep, and I have a very low self-esteem. This already has cost me a few friendships and I want to know what is wrong with me.
Whats wrong with me, depressed but this is different?
From personal experience it sounds like your depression (which from what you say your clearly aware of) has taken a turn into anxiety and perhaps slight agrophobia. I've suffered from this myself. Being depressed is one thing but when the pressure is on you and your hardly in a fit state to cope anyway it can turn to acute anxiety, trying to sleep but worrying so much about the things in your life you feel out of control of. For me when it got like this I just wanted to stay in my bed and facing the outside world left me in a state of panic and fear - which manifested itself physically into nausia and panick attacks. You are right, you need to see your doctor, no-one can give you the help you need on here, all we can do is reassure you that you are not alone and lots of people suffer this way, so don't be frightened. Book an appointement with your GP and try to take some control back in your life. Good luck
Does depression make you feel like a different person who you are on the outside?
In fact, not. When I am depressed it shows on my outside. Not the other way around. Depression (for me) gets me to dress in darker colours, more dull outfits all around. No make up, no jewelry. No dirty jokes. No smiles, without the forced ones. It’s depressive! ;-)A friend of mine once said, “I see in your eyes that you feel better now”. To have sad eyes is the most depressive of it all.Luckily I haven’t been that depressive for years. :-)But I am happy to say my good days shows at the outside too! :-)
Have You Ever Met a Suicidal Depressed Person Before?
What did you do or say? I did. It was at the psych ward. I saw a woman come in and cry. I held her like a bear hug--this was at a county hospital. I told her to hold onto my hand and not let go. It was so touching. A psychiatrist came in and started asking her questions, and she was sobbing so bad. It's just sad--so cold that even a trained learned professional cannot give a hug--so a person with a heart can. Have you met someone and what did you do? NOTE: I also saw a homeless man going crazy and saw him strapped up while paramedics were strolling him in to the ward, and laughing at him.....I cried, the coldness of this world. I just prayed for the guy.......................
Do Depressed People hang out With other Depressed People?
No. It really depends what mood you might be in. Sometimes it will feel as if being or hanging out with a friend relieves some of that dull depression. But then again if you're very depressed you might not care who you end up hanging out with OR you just might want to be left alone. It depends on how you will ultimately view the world that moment. When I'm slightly depressed, I don't mind hanging out with my friends. When i am feeling real low, I just want to keep to myself (usually this triggers crankiness) or not hang out with anyone.
Is it possible for two depressed people to "feed off" of one another's depression?
Yes it is possible - probable, actually! On the surface it can feel like a sort of 'bonding' but given the opportunity to feel better (maybe from a new positive influence), one person is likely to start making excuses to avoid the other. This is because despite the familiarity, a person's unconscious mind is looking for solutions, not reminders of existing troubles. So the relationship between two depressed people has a limited lifespan - unless hope enters the equation. As soon as one person starts to take an ACTIVE interest in dealing with their problems and sharing their discoveries, the other person's unconscious mind will latch onto the possibility of a solution. They can then spur each-other on to feeling increasingly better with shared insights, discoveries and forward momentum.