What does dying feel like?
Iv'e had a near death experience. And it's NOTHING like having an anesthetic. The last thing I felt was shear pain. I was strangling to death. And don't ask! I was stupid. The next thing I remember was standing behind my head looking at what everyone was doing. I could see a male Nurse using an OxyViva trying to get some air into my lungs. I remember two female Nurse's standing and kneeling beside me. I remember seeing just panic. But me, I felt a peace that I had NEVER felt before. I stood and watched as they struggled. Then I remember being pulled back into a tunnel. I saw a light so bright that it should have been blinding but wasn't. It was so beautiful. I started to float fast towards it, then it started to pull away. The next thing I know, I am coughing. My neck is killing me from scissors and I sat up. That experience changed me forever. I was never the same. It was a profound day. And I have never forgotten it.
Poll: was 2013 a good year for you?
no,, 2013 was not a good year it was a very trying year for me.
My life keeps getting worse?
I feel like since 2004 my life just got worse and something was subtracted from my life each year. In 2013 I have lost all hope I feel really bad right now my life keeps getting worse I'm 20 I have no friends my family hates me and I'm always alone in my room while my rubs it in my face that my cousins go out and have good lives. My family never invites me out and have always hated me it's just not me everyone hates each other in my family. It's hard to make friends when I'm so different then others where I live. Everyone my age acts immature and like there still in high school. I'm different I listen to rock music read books and like a lot of things different. I don't look like a nerd at all though even though I am one I'm also straight edge which means I don't drink smoke, do drugs, drink, and I don't have sex with random girls. I just feel like I'll never get to go out and have fun where I live sucks I met cool people like me online but they live far and I don't feel like moving right now to a town where I could find a lot of friends. My city sucks I hate it so much I live in the Bay Area and it sucks it should be called the Shitty Area. Anyways I've been in a depression really bad because I have never had fun since 2004 my life keeps getting worse my family is worse to. I feel hopeless like I'll never find the right girl and friends. Girls where I live are whores that take 1000 pictures of themselves and act stupid and like bimbos who try to get guy attention. I'm Mexican by the way and where I live it's mostly Filipinos which I don't fit in with and the Mexicans that do live here are either pot heads or part of a gang. I also can't find a job right now so I don't have money to go out at all so I'm stuck in my house. My life keeps getting harder and I feel like I'm going to loose it I pray everyday that got helps me and gives me the strength to move on day by day and be patient but I just loose hope. It's not fair why did I have to be mature for my age I mean the only I can have a conversation with is old people. My life got worse when my Grandfather passed away back in 2012 because he was the only person to make me me laugh and was someone I enjoyed seeing all the time all I have left is my mom but she's given up on me now to. What do I do?
Have I wasted my life? BE HONEST?
I am a 22 year old turning 23 in about 3 months, and I feel like I have wasted my youth. I live in a hood area of an extremely small retirement town of Southern California (and pretty much keep to myself to stay out of trouble) I am a college student...but the thing is that as of right now, I am attending the online graduation program at a Private University to save money (because if I was to take traditional classes there, it would be way too expensive) Well, I had plans on transferring from this Online Campus and going to a REAL University ever since 2013 and it is now the end of 2015 I was so excited...and basically the thought of transferring is what got me by everyday...my city is miserable, I am depressed and bored here, virtually no jobs for me here, no car etc. so I am basically STUCK But knowing that I am heading for something better kept me by for years. UNTIL NOW! I recently found out that most of my college units from my private university will not transfer to the Public University I wanted to attend" So I am STUCK HERE until I get my bachelors in spring of 2017 Which means I will be 24, and my only chance of going to the college I wanted to attend would be in grad school, where you no longer receive grants so it is much harder to maintain. Plus I always looked at 18-24 as the age group of "Yea you are technically adults, but you are at that transitional adolescent to adult age period where you can be stupid and nobody looks down on you for doing it"
How is the life of a jobless student after the completion of their engineering degree?
Graduated in 2011…my 2best friends got placed in Infosys and techm…and people in my class got selected in one or other company..I never have an interview until 2013…neighbours started questioning about career and stuff..started giving interviews from 2013..learnt courses …no luck..failed at every opportunity…relatuves started calling loser and stuff…friends started mocking…no one is willing to support…parents are embarrassed to admit that iam unemployed Infront of others..result constant argument between me and my father…stopped going home…joined a support job…less income…parents believe that iam a software engineer which iam not…started getting Cals from friends and relatives because Iam working …left the job due to typhoid and went home for a couple of days …peopl my age are earning in lakhs and iam struggling to make ends meet …father further criticize …. relatives start asking salary details and savings details which I have none..lied everywhere…got back to city..got a new job…better than old job but not a job for graduates but still working…its been a year I haven't been home..mom calls everyday..haven't been talking to dad or relatives for a year..I can't leave this job and I could not get a new job …no clarity about future…friends are getting married and iam still thinking of getting a better job…life is going on and will always go on…i always remember wat my mom says every body won't settle down immediately after graduation some may take 2years and some may take 10years keep trying and have patience…that is what iam doing right now.Cheers!!!!