How to not feel guilty about spending money?
Ah, buyers' remorse, or so my mom calls it. I used to go through the same thing with Build-a-Bears. I'd be at the part when I was supposed to jump around with the little fabric heart and make a wish, and then I'd burst out in tears because I didn't want the bear anymore. Anyway, onto *your* problem. I understand what you mean with the Kindle. When I first got mine, I splurged on books. I didn't want to spend *too* much money, but that dumb "One-Click To Buy" option got me every time. After a while, I realized that books were what I wanted to spend my money on, as nerdy as it sounded. I'm too young to be worrying about bills and what-not, so why not enjoy myself while I could? It wasn't like I was throwing my money out or anything, I was spending money on something I'd definitely read. Sometimes, you just have to remind yourself that you deserve a little TLC every once in a while. You're worth it XD (I really hope my advice doesn't turn you into that girl from "Confessions of a Shopaholic." :D) Edit: And remind yourself how much money you're *saving* by getting books on the Kindle. eBooks are so much cheaper than regular books!
Do you ever feel that you don't want to live in this world anymore?
You know the worst part about feeling helpless to change the world for the better, it makes you give up and become part of the very thing you hate.Through drug addiction, I didn't really interact with the world for nearly 15 years. I was a mere passive observer and didn't care one way or another if WW3 happened. No, in fact I welcomed Armageddon as I thought humanity had had it's time and I still believe we are destined to destroy ourselves.I'm happier than I've ever been in my life. I have money to survive and sometimes even live it up. I have a fiance whom I adore and is the only person I feel truly ‘gets me'. My parents are still alive, even though both of them are apart and don't really like each other.In the end, most people only worry about themselves and their nearest and dearest and that's what I do. I still worry about the state of the world and what my purpose is in it (if there is one). I'll never cure cancer, I'll never develop FTL travel so we can infect the rest of the universe, I will never be remembered for anything of note and I'm okay with that.We are all just living out our lives and waiting to die. Just have a little fun along the way and see life as some absurd experiment of a greater power we could never comprehend.