Depression question: Suicidal thoughts! Life just keeps getting harder each day!?
Hey, guys Well, lately I've been contemplating suicide a lot. I'm tired of being a topic of criticism and be the only defender of myself; tired of family and friends rejecting me; tired of waiting for good things but it never happens; tired of doing good and get a lot of negativity back! This ain't feeling sorry for myself; just observations and facts. I got told by 3 people this week that I'm just a hypocrite that tries and pretends to be a good guy on facebook, as a playwright but in real life, I'm just the exact opposite and deep down, I'm actually a bad guy... and I don't see how (I believe in ethics aswell as expressing my veganism and hate for human trafficking, but when it comes to jokes and be in a funny mood, I use a lot of street\ghetto humour aswell as name call with my friends for a joke [like most teenagers]). Also, there's things in the past I ain't over like getting physically (but not sexually) abused and tormented by my baby-sitters who were my cousins; seeing my dad getting sexually assaulted infront of me by a man (his health declined seriously after this event); living homeless at the age of 14 with my mum and young sister because of a fault and dispute that had nothing to do with us! I just see that if my life was crap at the first (the beginning) than it's gonna be a hell lot worse in the future (the end) so what's the point of even trying hard?! I'm the type of guy who suffers because of other peoples problems (say, have to deal with mum and dad arguing and have to move out and leave everything behind because mum told me to go with her or get mistaken for somebody else and get beaten up). GOSH! So many things I've written here, but anyways, what's the best thing I can do? I wanna be a normal 19-year old that's at the shopping centre with his mates having a laugh, get B's on my higher education course and hell! Walk around with a smile on my face when I've achieved something instead of being this case of a confused suicidal depressed teenager that's having himself be a barrier towards his life! Thanks for reading and answering back, Peace and blessings, guys!
When is suicide the best option?
I think you should only go through with your plan if you know you've tried everything else. I'm not the one who should make that choice for you, if you feel that its what you REALLY need to do how am i able to say I know how you feel and that you shouldn't. Alot of people would think i'd be screaming "NO DONT DO IT!" because my sister commited suicide, but unlike the rest of my family i don't resent her for that. Sure, i wish she would have tried to get help, i think she could have beat whatever made her do it but it's over. I had a plan for suicide that involved going on a trip before i killed myself as well, but timing never worked out and before i had the chance i was put into therapy by my parents. i know you said you weren't depressed, just not finding any fufillment in life, but i think therapy would be something good to do, maybe see if it can somehow help you find a way to be interested in life again. You can, by all means still have a family. Theres still a chance that you'll meet a woman you love, who loves you back. If your worried about your age coming in factor, my dad was twenty years older than my mom and had me when he was 50. if there something else stopping you from a family(not finding a girlfriend/wife or infertily, ect) im sure you could adopt a kid, or maybe even become a foster parent(my neighbours are, and theyre the good ones you dotn hear about often, every kid ive seen live with them have left SO MUCH BETTER. It was amazing to see) Anyways, i really hope that you find something in life tha tmake sit worth living. I really do. but if you don't, i hope you the best in whatever decision you make.
I hate suicidal people?
I'm fairly confident in saying your wonderful friend was far from the happiest person ever. Happy people don't commit suicide. A lot of people struggling with mental illness are good at hiding how they feel, because they don't want to be accused of seeking attention and they don't want to burden others with their hurt. No one kills themselves for no reason. It's always a tragedy, but it's never without reason. People who are suicidal feel miserable; they feel helpless and hopeless, like everything is horrible and it will stay horrible forever no matter what. A suicidal mindset convinces one that their friends, family, and the world in general would be better off without them. Suicide becomes an escape, the only way to stop the immense pain they feel. It's horrific that many who are considering suicide are dismissed as attention-seekers or angsty emo teens. It's important to listen when people share that they have been feeling very depressed, that they hate themselves, that they are being bullied, etc. Some people think suicide is cowardly or selfish, but usually it indicates that someone feels horrendous, has for a while, feels very alone, and feels suicide is their only option, their only out.
My brother just asked me for permission to commit suicide, should I grant it?
First off my brother has been suicidal all of his life.. In all honestly nothing has gone right for him, and if I were him I would likely have committed suicide a long time ago... His life story: Molested by his father(not mine) Bi-racial in Alabama so he was beat up everyday after high school Wife(only girl in his life) of 13 years broke up with him after SHE cheated on him... He didn't even get to have sex yet so he is still a virgin.. Went to country jail a while back on false drug charges, the cop had it in for him, was forced to give oral sex to another inmate...(still a virgin) Lost half of his stuff in the divorce and just got the only good thing in his life taken(his HDTV) by merciless thieves, they took most of his other things.. Tried to commit suicide before and was put in a suicide clinic for a year... I think that if his life is that miserable he should be given the right to kill himself... Why should I force him to keep living for my own sake??? I don't know what to do.
Home alone, suicidal, tempted to do it, not sure about how to write note among other stuff?
That is going to be a difficult note to write. Your concern about you little sister's reaction suggest that you are close. It going to really hurt her. Likely a scar that she will carry all her life. You will have to explain why the pain was so bad you could not go on. Why there were not options for help. If you try and fail you can leave yourself with expensive and painful medical issues. I understand life really sucks. Would not be this way if people were decent to each other but that not how it is. I've been where you are I understand and respect your freedom of choice. It is a sobering choice, suicide, it is a one way door, no way to know for sure what is on the other side. Of course how it is, is not how it always will be. Good people do exist and being around good people make life worth living. Maybe consider this possibility.
I feel depress/suicidal because I'm dumb?
i feel sad today cause today my teacher ask me a question and i didn't know the answer and it was really easy i guess for normal people and i heard two girls behind me say that i'm dumb and it hurt my feelings.. they said it whisper but i heard it and i feel like crying a little bit because my brain is not good like regular people and its slow. i really want to be smart i study hard but i forget many things easy.. i think many people think im slow and it hurts my feelings and can't do anything
Is there any painless way to commit suicide?
if you are going to kill yourself due to depression, then get proffesional help from a counselor, phsyciatric, therapist, and/or a psychologist. if you are gonna kill yourself due to an illness or disease, then try to get it treated by going to a hospital or doctor. dont give up! happiness is worth living for, try doing things you enjoy. you can email me at benhoek007@yahoo.com if you want to talk. first try to solve the problem that is causing your suicidal thoughts (if there is one). if that doesnt work, then you should see a proffessional about this. proffesionals include counselors, psychologists, therapists, and/or psychiatrics (a psychiatric might give you medicine for this. but if you do get medicine, research the medicine to make sure it is good medicine that will work and not make things worse. some medicines make people more depressed and suicidal. so ask a psychiatric about that. remove all ways of killing yourself from your access). i hope everything works out! and if you do take medicine, try to have someone watch you while you are taking it so they can stop you from committing suicide since the medicine might make you more suicidal. try not to be alone when taking medicine for depression or suicidal thoughts. but dont give up! you can get through this! you just need to get proffesional help. if all of the proffesional helps dont work, then try to solve or find a way to deal with the problem that is causing your depression. If you kill yourself, there is no way you can be happy. But if you try to solve this problem, then you will have a chance of being happy. Suicide is permanent, so if you kill yourself, you cannot come back to life. You have nothing to lose if you keep trying to solve this problem. You can feel good for a long time if you dont kill yourself. you can also try talking to a friend or family member about this. you only live once, so try to make the best of it.
Should i commit suicide because im so ugly?
im really ugly. i cant get over it ever. im 18 year old female and i just dont want to go on living. i dont see any point. dont tell me its selfish because i have no friends anyways. and my parents are divorced. the only family i have is my little sister and my mom. my sister says im ugly and weird and encourages me to kill myself and my mom hates me she says i was a mistake. and dont tell me im not ugly cuz i really am. last year i got a video on facebook from some girls in my school like 6 of them making fun of my appearance and saying i was ugly and stuff and telling me to kill myself. I am really hideous I mean I have a slim body and clear skin but it doesnt matter cuz I have weird eyes and my face is lopsided and really long a lot of people say i look like a horse and i cannot afford plastic surgery and i have nothing going for me i am currently failing college cuz I dont understand stuff and Im just too depressed to really even try anymore. Like what is the point of even being alive if i am so ugly and no one will ever like me and everyone thinks im an ugly joke. i will never be pretty and i really dont see any point in continuing my life.