Why try? Why should I try to succeed in high school?
Hm, it seems you have a somewhat grim view of the world. However, you are a realist, and I respect that 100%. High school is full of meaningless drama, there is no getting around that. But it is important that you learn tolerance for ignorant behavior. Unfortunately, many adults in the real world behave worse than teenagers do in high school. You should also consider work habits. If you don't try hard in school now, you'll form negative work habits that will ultimately hurt you later on. I'm not going to lie to you and tell you that you'll use everything you learn in high school in everyday life, but it is important to pay attention and study to pick up the information that you will use. Finally, you should consider being more open-minded. You assume that you have everything completely figured out. Life is unexpected and unpredictable. You need to prepare yourself for anything and everything. The day you stop trying to improve yourself is the day that you will cease to be the best. Don't be stubborn and settle on one pessimistic view of the world. Allow yourself to experience different viewpoints and improve your way of thinking. I am a realist, myself, and I use this philosophy in my everyday life.
I'm a 16 year old high school student who has a complex and tragic life story. I've had horrible events, traumas and psychological torture for a long time. I can't get over it. I lost my passion and I really want to disappear. Is there any way to survive in life?
*Trigger warning, comment mentions severe abuse and rape.*I am much older than you, but, I have had a very complicated life myself and did when I was your age. A number of horrible events, traumas and torture. My mother was extremely abusive, some of the torture was of more classic physical kinds. Amongst other things she waterboarded me once when I was in primary school.I gotta tell you man, its tough. Its really tough. I am 28 now and I'm starting to get a grip on being okay and having a nice life. Its been really fucking rough after my home situation I was in multiple abusive romantic relationships, just last year, no kidding, I was sexually assaulted/raped by a co-worker.Its doable. Its tough but its doable. In my darker moments I slip back into thinking there can never be such thing as a nice life for me, but honestly, I'm making it happen. After the shake-up last year I'm trying to start my own business in an area that I'm passionate about, all of the people in my life are supportive and excellent people now. I'm starting to imagine a nice life. I think its there and possible.I went through a lot of years of thinking it was not possible. Grit and a lot of determination are needed. I know it might be hard but with the problems you're facing you are going to need years of psychological help. Start with school counselors and later university counselors. Be aware though that they might not be too much help. They'll be used to dealing with normal things like study stress. They are unlikely to be equipped to deal with the sort of issues that you have got going on. They might be able to point you in the right place though. You're going to want to find people who specialise in trauma.Its hard, but you'll get out of your current situation at some point. You've got a _whole life_ ahead of you. I still see myself as very young and I'm over a decade older than you are. There's still so much time and room to make a decent sort of life. A decent sort of life for you might look different than a decent sort of life for other people, but, you've only ever been in your head and you only ever will be. You just need to find yourself a way to live that can be a good life for you. You have a lot of time. Its possible.
The dark side of Japanese culture?
This question is very hard for me to word properly and I do not mean to offend anyone,but this has been bothering me for awhile..... I love and appreciate Japanese and other Asian cultures, but Japan seems to have a dark side to their culture. They strive for perfection. They have the most advanced technology. They make the most extreme and violent horror movies ever made (google "the guinea pig movies" or "Muzan-e") as well as pornography. There seems to be an obsession with rape as well. They have among the highest suicide rates in the world. This disturbs me and I wonder what about their culture, history, or society influenced this. Does anyone have any facts, educated theories, or informed opinions on this that can tie this all together? HAS ANYONE ELSE NOTICED THIS? What else do you notice about the dark side of their culture?? I understand that other countries, including and especially the US, have things like these in common. But I want to DISCUSS JAPAN ONLY.
List of the most/extremely violent Anime ever created!?
Yeah, Elfen Lied was pretty violent but at least it was still good. I think the most violent (even when stylized) anime I've seen just wasn't very good. I saw one that was heavy on psychotic fight/death scenes and violent sex. I think it was called Ichi the Killer/Koroshiya but I've tried my best to forget it. There was also Ninja Resurrection, same deal --wish I never saw it. I haven't seen Legend of the Overfiend/Urotsukidoji but I hear it's the same kind of thing. To each his own. Hellsing is probably violent on the order of Vampire Hunter D and is actually a good story. In fact, you'd probably like most vampire anime because, well, vampires generally tend to hurt people. You might check out Vampire Princess Miyu, Blood: The Last Vampire, or Twilight of the Dark Master. Evangelion also has its violent moments. Narutaru is violent in the Elfen Lied way, but if you can get over the crappy ending you might like it (and don't let the first couple of episodes deceive you into thinking it's a happy-happy cute-cute anime because it's definitely not). Jin-Roh doesn't hold back on the violence either. I'd put it loosely in the Ghost in the Shell category, but more violent and not quite as engaging a story. I don't know any sites that do violent movies exclusively. You should poke around AnimeDB and AnimeNfo in sections like horror/vampires/dementia/demons, martial arts/action, and ninja/samurai/historical/war.
I'm trying to write my own novel... Is this too dark?
Yes or no? No. OBVIOUSLY. And frankly, it's not even very dark. It's pretty mainstream and tame, actually. There's nothing controversial about this, nothing different, nothing that would attract anyone's attention, even, let alone get you 'in trouble'. It's not shocking in any way. It's bland, if anything. I'm actually quite stunned that anyone who's considering writing a book could have such a skewed view of what they're doing in relation to other books out there. My advice is that you read a lot more, because if you think this is 'too dark', it seems your reading so far could have been a little limited and/or sheltered. Oh, and by the way - just because someone's spent a week in a psychiatric hospital, that doesn't give them carte blanche to be incredibly rude to people. The attitude and monumental ignorance of your question doesn't bode well for getting your book published, sweetheart. No agent is going to want to deal with an aggressively brattish teenager. They won't give a toss if you're depressed or not. Get over yourself and stop using mental health like it's some sort of edgy status symbol. I've suffered from clinical depression myself, but I don't feel the need to show off about it and I don't believe it makes me anything special.
I'm really bored of barbies dolls... what can I do to have fun with them?
"Many kids may have a few dark fantasies when bored with something. I remember traumatizing my older sister by wrapping all of her Barbie's up in white yarn and suspending them in a whacky cobweb strung between the legs of the table and several chairs. The least fortunate of the dolls had a huge hairy rubber spider perched atop her, rather busy with the job of turning Barbie's guts into liquid and then sucking them out. I had taken the yarn from grandma's knitting basket. She was none too pleased about the arachnid holocaust either. " your bored due to them having the same appearance all the time. Perhaps if you knit up a red and green-stripped sweater for one of them and give it a battered fedora and a glove with knives for fingernails you'd be better off.