Is it weird that I want to die?
What is your opinion of "normal"? Everybody's normal until you get to know them. And no one's the same...so technically, "normal" means nothing. I agree with you completely. I don't want to kill myself, but I wouldn't mind dying at all. Sure, I fear what's to come from death (the outcome, that is), but the earth is such a sick place. Everything is potentially my fault, and it feels selfish and melodramatic to feel sorry for myself, but I don't think I've had the best of luck on this earth. I'm glad that I'm not one of the lust-obsessed, today's "average" teenage girls... But, in that way, the world is such a sick place. Everything we do seems so surrounded by lust and warped ideas of love and murder of people you thought you were close to, people that just abandon and neglect... So, leaving from here would not be a sad thing at all... but I can't kill myself. That's so extreme, and scares me quite a bit. Is it "normal"? Well I don't think it's too messed up. Many people can agree that the direction we're headed in is not a good one. That doesn't make them mental. Everyone has different opinions, and many people would be totally content with just evacuating or being free from here. Hence, to die. I don't think that's a crazy thing at all. I think it's much more mature than the "I'm just going to live it up and waste myself" point of view. If it gets to an extend where you would be in danger, I think it would be more of a problem. You shouldn't endanger yourself just because you don't fear death. Those around you definitely wouldn't be pleased with that... But just "wanting to die", as you put it, isn't something odd. Don't feel like your unwanted here just because you might be different from others around you. The problem with doctors, though, is that they will only view you as if you have an imbalance. They only look at symptoms and try to change them, not as if you're a real person with real thoughts that are potentially more diverse than theirs. They don't do a great job of listening to the body, but just focus on negative thoughts and ideas of the "patient". The problem with that is that everyone is upset at some point, so anyone who visits that kind of doctor will be thought of as "depressed".
I feel unwanted in my family because I'm quiet?
I'm a 17 year old girl and when I was in 6th grade, I started getting picked on by a lot of kids in my class. Everyone said I was creepy or weird because I was really shy and didn't talk much. I didn't have any friends and I started to withdraw from my family. I got pretty depressed, gained a lot of weight (got up to 230 pounds) and I would just stay in my room and stopped going to family activities and stuff. After a couple years, my family pretty much just stopped trying to get me to go places with them because they know I would just say no, and on rare occasions when I do go out with them, I just sit there and hardly say anything. My mom used to tell me how I embarrass her because I don't talk and I don't have any friends. I don't know why, I just never feel up to doing anything anymore, even simple things like talking. I would rather just be alone in my room, listening to music. I understand why they don't want me around anymore, but it just sucks because I feel like I lost my family and it's my fault because I push everyone away. I don't know, I just don't belong anywhere. everywhere I go, I'm the the fat quiet girl that doesn't fit in with anyone, and it's all my fault. I did this to myself and I don't think I can fix it. I isolated myself and I have nobody. I just want to go back to first grade and be that happy outgoing kid I was before. Sometimes I feel like it would be easier if I wasn't here. Any advice?
Why do I feel unwanted when I’m with my friends?
If they are really happy without yu then sorry dear ,they are not your friends actually, they are attached with yu only for some beneficial reasons.I know it feels quite embarassing that you gave so much value n attention to them as being a friend and they r behaving weird with yu.But everything happens for a reason. Firstly you have to analyse what’s the reason behind this. For this you have to check within you that is there anything strange in your behaviour due to that they are doing so. If yu find it then improve it otherwise you dont have to worry about that.Don’t be sad about it, detach yourself from them. Do other things that gives yu pleasure , explore your intrests that makes you happy like playing pool, going to gym , reading books and with this keep focussing on your studies as well.Never feel upset that yu are underestimated or rejected by your friends or someone or they don’t realise your worth.If they talks to yu and asks for a favour or something then don’t be rude with them, just simply tell them that yu are busy nowadays or yu are not intrested in that thing.Sometimes learn to say “NO” to your friends, don’t making yourself available to them always.This will make them feel that for you ,they are not priority and soon they realise your true worth.Always be happy in yu and with whatever yu have. Help people if yu can do if they are genuinely in need but dont expect the same in return . As Expectations leads to dissatisfaction. Dissatisfaction leads to Sadness.Learn lessons from life , Life is the best teacher if one is eager to learn from it and adapt its teachings.P.c - MalesLife/InstagramKeep believe in Karma.ALWAYS BE POSITIVE N KEEP SMILING .:)
Sex feels weird, why?
i had sex for the fourth time ever in my life with my boyfriend and everytime at first it hurts but then as he goes in more it feels like nothing or like numb and then if he goes in even further i get this weird feeling in like my lower back and butt and lower tummy. i dont know how to explain it but it doesnt feel good. fingering doesnt feel good either sometimes it hurts or feels weird, the only thing that does something is rubbing against something. will sex ever feel good, will anything ever feel good? im really tight and get really wet (ha) so its deff well lubed haha he's not small, but he's not really big either, he's like perfect sized (well i think so anyway) and why after sex does it feel weird to sit or move certain ways? help! :(
Is it weird to constantly feel as if your being judged by other people?
No, it's not weird to feel like you're constantly being judged, because as long as there are people around, you ARE being judged. Of course, you don't want to always have this weird feeling, so what you have to do is acknowledge that people judge you, but don't let it bother you. As for why you believe people are judging you negatively, I would suggest this has to do with your own low self esteem issues. It would help if you could work through those. Also, don't in turn judge other people, because as you've seen it just leaves you feeling worse. Come out on top by being strong and not lowering yourself to others' level.
I feel unwanted and stupid. I want to hurt myself. How can I make my life better?
There is nothing like making life better.The truth is life doesn’t get better or any easier. You get better and tough with time.The best you can do for yourself is to change your lifestyle and the way you think, i know it does sound weird but its not. You feel unwanted because you do some amazing thing for people you love and care for and you don’t get in return what you deserve. taking an extra leap for someone you love is great but its not about them. it about you and its always has been. there is nothing wrong being little selfish . You’re hurt because you expected a little too much from this world which the world cannot promise to give you in return.Another major thing is you work and you make a lifestyle and comfort level for yourself and that GREAT!! but maintaing that level and that comfort for your whole life is the real challenge my friend.Nobody really cares what you do and what you are and remember, not matter what you do someone is always gonna be unhappy. You don’t owe anything to the world and you don’t have to prove yourself and stop pleasing everyone. its your life and you have the total control of it. The actions you take today will affects and shape your tomorrow. Last but not the least, everyone got his own struggles you are not the only one.
How can I integrate into society as someone viewed ''weird''/''unwanted'' by others?
Long script:I am socially awkward ever since I know myself. I am a neurotic person with many different kinds of anxiety. I can’t maintain any friendship in general. I feel that people find me unattractive as a person in the society. I feel this a lot when some people look down on me with their body language. And I feel that I am unaccepted by people in general. It’s not that I am hateful towards others or talk badly behind them. It’s just that I’m an unattractive person. I was in depression when I was in highschool due to lack of my social skills and I thought it would end when my environment changes, but apparently the situation hasn’t changed. Now it’s my 3rd year in university and what I have noticed is that almost everyone can get along with each other except me. Another thing I have noticed is that even newcomers get integrated/accepted but I’m still this awkward person. I feel lonely and I am saddened by this. I smile at people, wish them a good day etc. and I have always been kind to others. There are some kind people I hang out and eat with in the dining hall and in some classes. But it’s more likely our friendship(?) will end as soon as we don’t have any common classes. My friends always had been the people I study with. I tried to join charity groups and this happened there, too. People don’t seem to care how good, kind and helpful I am by heart. I envy how people get in the same rhythm together and enjoy each other’s company. There is also this fact of me that I am bad at noticing others emotions, problems and behave according to their needs at the time I encounter. I witness people open up to each other and I feel sad when I realize I haven’t realized their situations.This social situation of me gets me very broken, depressed and prevents my mind from getting focused on my studies and self-improve my skills. I am unwanted and I don’t know what to do. I need to overcome this and get a life, be it ignoring everything totally just like people do to me or fix the whole situation.Thanks for your time.
Why I'm always alone and unwanted?
I'm feeling so unwanted and alone between my new schoolmates, by the way, I'm freshman... Everyone is in groups now and it's hard to join them. I've a good friend and he told me that they gossip a lot about me, that I'm weird and strange... I can say this may be true, but ONLY in school, because I'm nervous there, because I don't have a lot of friends and I may act weird, because I don't talk a lot. Don't say I should talk more often, just read more... We have 8 boys in our class and on the first day of school I was in good realtionship with all of them, but then slowly they stopped to communicate with me. I can communicate with them, but I don't feel their interest anymore. I've 3 friends between 8 boys. I don't really know what's problem... When we're hanging out between school break to bakery, they always wait for each other to dress, but not me. I always need to catch them than, and I feel like unneeded when I'm with them. I can't find interesting topic, they always talk about other students, alcohol, parties and drugs and this isn't interesting me very much. And when I say something, they're like "WTF?!"... It's really bad feeling. They are sometimes hanging out after school, but I'm never in their plans. I can know about these events from my friend which is kinda popular between them, but I won't show there, because if they don't invite me, I think I'm not needed. So, I'm never included in their plans. I'm feeling distance, when I talk with them, they never start talking to me, because I'm not interesting to them. They are always talking with my friend and calling him between class, he is WANTED. Why I'm not? I'm feeling really depressed, when I sit alone and see how others are having fun and cracking jokes. If I say joke, nobody will laugh... This makes me really unpopular between girls. Nobody ever clicks me on facebook, just if they need to know what was for homework. Even if I try to make really cool picture and post it on facebook, I get only few likes from my best friends and nobody else, even if it's better than a picture from a popular boy... Nobody texts me on my phone or call me... I'm always so alone, what should I do? I REALLY WANT TO CHANGE AND BE POPULAR, SO I WILL BE ALWAYS WANTED. PLEASE HELP ME.
Why do I feel so odd and unwanted around my closest friends?
Oh wow! And here was me thinking I’m the only one who feels so out of place amongst not just my friends, but, quite often, my family too! Like they have other things to do which are more important than me. I felt like this before I got married, and when my husband was alive and with me, I NEVER felt like this because he made me feel that I was the centre of his world. After he died that feeling came back with a vengeance. I always act as if I am A-OK, full of beans, funny, cheerful, etc… but that loneliness inside is always there. I mask that loneliness well 99% of the time. The other 1%… well, let’s not go there.