Ocd ruining my life?
I have OCD and it got to the point about 9 years ago where I was afraid to leave the house. I was on tons of different meds and it just kept getting worse. I decided to do things on my own. The hardest part is taking those first steps. I did little things like when I went to wash my hands, I would force myself to not use soap (sometimes), and the feeling of the water would ease me a little bit and the lack of soap would push me a little bit. I would go out on the front stoop and talk to passersby and neighbors. Many steps later, I got to the point where I could go to the gym. I obsessed. In my obsession with exercise, my body started to get healthy, and my mind started to get healthier. I slowly cut out things like soda, candy, fast foods, MSG, then meats. Now I am a vegetarian and I eat mainly organic foods. Again, my body and mind are healing. I started meditation and yoga. for about a 5 year period, when I started to feel out of control, I turned to the occasional marijuana. The worst side effect to that was laziness and munchies ( I kept air popped popcorn around for the occasion). I don't condone illegal drug use, but it did help me very much. Nine years later, and I am still haunted by OC thoughts, and sometimes my absolute need to act on them, but I am functional, and happy, and I consider myself healed. Personally, I think that while meds helped sometimes, overall they made things worse. I felt like the drs science experiment. I would never go back on meds, ever. I had the shaky leg thing too, drove everyone crazy, everyone told me I was hyper and nervous. Feel free to email me if you want to talk.
Can someone help me regain control of my life?
I'm hoping you are a born-again Christian. Christianity is about faith for sure, a trust, but with love too. This takes a maturity. This isn't just a head thing, a knowing, but also a heart thing -- a willingness to love and commit to God eternally. The most important factors I'm learning are faith, love, peace, hope, friendliness, caring, giving. and meekness, plus obedience. God is our Creator, all-knowing, all-powerful, eternal, holy, love. Mostly, God is love and He wants us to be love too and become like Jesus Christ, which takes obedience and faith that He can help us succeed to do His will. Our will needs to be yielded to His will. We need to accept Jesus into our life as our Lord and Savior forever to receive God's blessing and forgiveness plus go to heaven. Having Jesus in your life means changing your life to accept His leadership -- thus He is your Lord, and not just your Savior. He wants to change us to be more like Him. The more we love God, the more we can commit and be obedient. Spiritual maturity comes as we realize that life isn't all about us. Most important is loving and helping God and others. I'm Lutheran and I like the Baptist churches too. Ways to stay on the project are going to church, reading the Bible daily, and daily prayer as needed. Some churches do a weekly Bible study group and these can be a good way to get committed to read the Bible often and keep going. Let God guide you. God bless.
I need some help with OCD?
I've suffered from OCD for a number of years now and for all I can remember I've had a thing about numbers. Lately it's getting bad though. I started college a couple of weeks ago and this week I had been an hour and a half late because I went home to organise my things. Today I can't do my work because I have to write about cells in groups of three. When I asked my teacher if I could skip it and do something else he wouldn't let me, wondered why and I told him I don't like doing things in groups of three and now he thinks I'm utterly bonkers. Everything I do in life is revolved around OCD, about perfection, having things in the right place, going into rooms on the right foot, touching things until they feel right, counting back from one hundred and I can't even put numbers properly, I have to write them. I want help but I don't want help, I don't want to break my habbits but I want someone to know what I'm like because I feel so alone. I only have my boyfriend to talk to and yet this is hard because I hardly see him. I just don't know whether to explain it to my teacher or whatever because this is getting really hard now. Please help. x
Please help me... OCD is ruining my life?
Guys I literally have no life anymore because OCD rules me. I am 29 and I live with my parents. I have no friends or relationships. All because of OCD and social anxiety. I have a full time job but I hate every second of it, the only reason I go there is because one of my main OCD's is about money hoarding. I have a set figure of £22.5k in my mind that has to be in my savings account at all times. Earlier this year I had a financial blow due to gambling and went below my sacred figure. I almost killed myself about it. I never buy myself anything I just hoard my money and am slowly getting back up to £22.5k. But when I am at that figure nothing makes any difference. I am not happy and my life still goes nowhere. My job makes me so miserable and there are so many things I could be doing with that money and just do not do because I feel like it has to be at that magic figure no matter what. I also have SO many other OCD things I can't begin to explain and on top of this I am hugely depressed and suicidal at most times. I feel like nobody cares how bad this is for me. I just don't know what to do. If I speak to my Dr do you think there is any way I'd be entitled to benefits while I sort myself out. I know probably not due to my savings. Every day just gets harder and I can't seem to see a point to life anymore. Please, what can I do? :(
HOCD Is Ruining My Life?
hi please take time to read everything below, I respect and appreciate you taking the time to read my question and hopefully providing me with some helpful advice. I have posted this question on two other categories as well. Where do I begin, I'm 18 years old and for about the past two/three months I have been mentally under attack, that's all I can describe it as. I've been having 'gay thoughts', an image might pop into my head of me having sex with one of my friends and on occasion even family members, I am Absolutely disgusted and ashamed about the family member part and please try and appreciate how tough it was for me to actually type that knowing people would read it. At this point I would also like to point out that I am a 'recovering' porn addict. Its been tough, about a month ago I would console myself by repeatedly saying 'You're not gay, you're not gay, you're straight, you're not gay you're not bi-sexual, you're not even bi-curious, you're straight.' However things have now gotten so bad I'm starting to question my sexuality, maybe I am gay maybe I am bisexual. I looked at the symptoms of HOCD and I seem to have them so I have diagnosed myself with HOCD. I keep on saying to myself 'Why me?' I don't do bad things in life, I'm not a bully, or a thief, I don't cheat on people or do anything seriously wrong in life, I don't understand why I'm being 'mentally punished' even though I don't deserve it. I'm not a religious person by the way, I just mean that life is being unfair to me for no good reason. Last night was really tough, I masturbated over an image of a man's penis, (yet another incredibly embarrassing thing that I am disgusted by) I don't know why and I had to use a lot of imagination to actually orgasm, I think I was trying to test myself. The thing is though, when I'm watching a film, X-Men for example, I don't sit and say 'Ohhhh, Hugh Jackman, he's really good looking.' When I walk down the street I don't check out every guy that walks past me. I'm now getting to the point were suicide seems like an option, I know that's not something to say lightly but I am being serious. I don't want to go to a therapist or tell my parents, I just want help or advice or something, this is ruining my life, its killing me inside and I don't know what to do please help with this. And before anyone asks, no I'm not trolling, I wish I was but I'm not
How is compulsive lying treated?
Depending on where you live you can usually, find free services that help with whats called "marriage, family life counseling" or MLFT Counseling.... i am a school counselor and psychologist, and i deal with students and parents who have this PD (Personality Disorder), often they have other ( OCD ) Obsessive Compulsive Behaviors and or Thoughts as well. theres actually quite a few medications that can help reduce this, although it is recommended that you see a psychiatrist, you can tell your general practitioner and they maybe able to help. all doctors visits are expensive if you do not have health insurance, but its something to keep in mind. as Psychiatrists are Specialists and are EXTREAMLY expensive for full evlauations with And without insurance. heres the federal website... http://www.hhs.gov/ start there and look around for Local Mental Health Services they will be able to help you get free or greatly reduced cost ( like $5~25 / hr ) services such as counseling. heres one more site that has some pretty good easy to understand info on compulsive lying. http://www.buzzle.com/articles/compulsive-liar-treatment.html Since it is a PERSONALITY DISORDER* you probably will need to seek professional help. i realize its hugely inconvenient and expensive.... but if its ruining your life, your going to have to deal with this personality disorder before it becomes a permeant fixture of who you are. please realize that personality disorders are not mental illness, but they can be just as debilitating. if you truly cannot control your lying, and it is affecting the quality of your life, do a little leg work the resources are out there: below are some that are online, also depending on your region you can usually find free support groups where you can meet in person. There are online support groups: http://www.experienceproject.com/groups/Am-A-Compulsive-Liar/115773 http://www.psychforums.com/compulsive-lying/ http://www.dailystrength.org/groups/compulsive-liars PD Definition: Personality disorders are a group of psychiatric conditions in which a person's long-term (chronic) behaviors, emotions, and thoughts are very different from their culture's expectations and cause serious problems with relationships and work. http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001935/
There are a lot of theories about OCD. I believe the one which relates it back to repressed anger issues because that is what I experienced. At first I doubted the theory because I could count the times I had been angry about something over the course of my entire life on less than one hand.A lack of anger is Not a problem if all areas of life are flowing, but when one cannot live life fully because they are obsessed with order and cleanliness, or whatever else it is which occupies their life, that indicates something else is amiss.After years of therapy, and after having dug out all the rage I didn’t know was there because I had repressed it, and worked on it, by the time I was finished, I no longer had OCD. Once the rage appeared, I added Anger Management Classes as well as I had no ability to deal with my anger other than a nervous breakdown…Until that point, my history of OCD began as a child with never stepping on a crack which later mushroomed until if one thing was out of order, I would suffer greatly from anxiety until it was back in order... Now, I don’t notice cracks and I don’t care if everything is perfect or not!Interesting period. Glad to be free of it and totally amazed by how it actually looks like someone lives in my house now… But it has been my experience, when as humans, we cannot bare to look at something, or have been so dis-empowered, we will find ways to distract ourselves from commotion and create a safe orderly space outside ourselves in anyway possible to us. This is OCD.When we are safe and have a safe internal space, we don’t need to try to control our environment outside of us because we have a sense of balance within!Not to worry, once the underlying issues are well on their way to being resolved, the OCD goes with it! Once it’s gone, one can start to work on other things!Not so easy to do, but well worth the effort.Wishing you the best on this journey!
OCD help and advise?
Can someone please help me with my OCD. I have random attacks for random things during the day and before I go to l bed. It'll keep me up for 30 minutes longer than I'd like to be and it's really stressful. My fiancée worries and I don't know what to do. What can I do when my OCD goes crazy? Is there something I can do to help, perhaps at that very moment that it happens? Thanks y'all....I really appreciate it.