Should I end my life?
for the past year i always think about killing myself. i have committed suicide before in 2009 by stabbing myself in the abdomen but it didnt work. i did take anti deprressants but it did little for me and now over a year i still think about ending my life. im a junior and for two years i'm still an outcast i have 6 people i consider as a friend, people alwasy talk behind my back saying i'm ugly or im a freak, i can take these words but it just makes me depressed and mad that i might just snap, most kids there know me as a quiet and timid person and not sociable, even my parents dont like the way i am, my dad keeps saying i'll grow up to be gay since i havent got a girlfriend or kissed a girl in my life and not getting in a fight with someone and now wants me to join the military for that and always says im stupid if i dont do things right he also has bipolar disorder which is why hes in a bad mood over half the times,my mom doesnt really care about anyone but her stupid self. my parents do fight over some things and even simple things, where they dont agree about something and end up in a fight for several days, my dad does hit my mom. my self esteem and confidence always has its up s and down. sometimes i put myself in comic books and fantasize myself being there just trying to get out of my real life, i dont hang out with other people and mostly hang inside my room, i can always see teachers and students looking at me which my insecurities comes in and i know that they dont like me. i know this might sound all dumb and it seems that i'm selfish which my parents found,but is this something i should find help with? because i'm always thinking about killing myself.
I want to end my life?
Ive wanted to since I was 14. I'm almost 22 now. I've got no friends. I don't know my family. I've never had a real relationship with anyone. I don't know how to act around people. I just want someone to talk to. I don't know what to do. I have a job but it doesn't seem to matter. I look at a lot of questions here on yahoo. "Everyone has a purpose". So on and so forth. I've hated life since I was a high school freshman. I've never ended my life because there's no coming back from that. I don't want to be another statistic. But I'm doing nothing with my life and I'm so alone. Things WOULD be easier if I just ended everything. I hate being alone all the time. I go to my local bar and try to talk to people but usually just sit by myself. I'm planning on going skydiving in a couple weeks but I don't even care about that anymore. I see everyone around me having a good time but I'm by myself. I really like the waitress at the bar I go to but she has a boyfriend. Ending my life would some people in my life and that's why I probably won't do it. I just feel horrible though because I wish I would get tboned by a semi or get shot so it won't look like a suicide. I want to see a counselor but I don't have the money for that. I don't know what to do. Give it a couple more months and I will end up just ending me. What do I do?
How do I properly end my life?
You want to kill your self.... Please don't. Many of us feel that we should end it all at one point in our lives. Yes the world is ugly, we are ugly, society is ugly. But if we hang on, we can change the world for the better, learn new things, find beauty in this world of ours. Just hang on for a couple of weeks, do things that you truly enjoy, and just don't care what other think. Do what makes you laugh, laugh at other people, laugh at how we behave, just don't care about what others think about you. Find people that accept you, if you can't - learn to accept yourself. It is the best thing you can do for yourself. Then think about - I mean we only get one life and we can never get it back. I thought about it and I am glad I never did it.
I WANT MY LIFE TO END RIGHT NOW!!!?
Satan says "you deserve to die, you are worthless adn nothing will ever change." God says "you can be forgiven if you repent and you can be adopted into my family. I can fill you with joy and peace unspeakable and I can give you a future and a hope (Jeremiah 29)" Why are you choosing to listen to Satan? Suicide is a serious mistake. Suicide seems tempting because it appears like a way out of a life of misery...but that is a lie. It is not a way out, it is a way into something else with no way to return. Please listen to the testimony of this woman who did commit suicide, and was one of the very few who received a 2nd chance. It is an amazing story: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zSNwnIOz... God loves you very much. You are his wonderful and precious child. The way you overcome this depression and this evil spirit of suicide (understand that those emotions come from an evil spirit that is following you) is with these three steps: 1) Talk to Jesus Christ. Ask him to cleanse you and come inside your heart, to fill you with the Holy Spirit and to set you free from this spirit of suicide. Note: these spirits are not afraid of people, they only obey Jesus. 2) You need to learn to see yourself like God sees you and speak it out. Watch Joyce Meyers on TV every day as she is really good in teaching that. As long as you see yourself the way the world sees you the devil can keep you down, depressed and suicidal. You are NOT who the world says you are. No, the truth is you are WHO GOD says you are. You just need to figure out what that is… 3) You need to figure out - directly from Jesus - what is your purpose in life? God gave you life for one very specific reason. There is a calling on your life. The depression is only a sign that you are not going in the right direction. God sometimes allows pain to come to re-direct our steps. Once you learn God's specific calling on your life and you start investing time on that area joy will automatically bubble up inside of you. The joy of life is just an indication you are in the middle of God's will. Start asking God and Jesus to give you a revelation about your calling, and to help you take hold of that. Again, watch Joyce Meyers every day for this topic too. I guarantee you Jesus can set you free as I am a person speaking from personal experience.
I hate my life. I want to end it.?
Life is painful. Its full of frustrations, disappointment, anger, it seems logical to end it, easier to end it. But you're only fourteen, there's so much of life you haven't done yet. You haven't even started. And there's so much good out there, so many things to enjoy. Some day you'll be an adult, you'll live on you're own, your home will be yours and not your parents'. You wont get blamed for things, you wont have to live by other people's rules. You wont be threatened. You'll be able to move wherever you want, you'll be able to be closer to your friends. Do you really want to kill yourself now and miss out on all the good that's going to happen? I know four years seems like an eternity right now, but it'll go so fast, and you'll look back amazed at how much everything has changed and is changing.