My life is a living hell and I can't escape.?
My life is a living hell. I wake up and get screamed at by my parents, while they try to make me sit and listen to them try to twist my head while bellowing at the top of their lungs drunk on wine. I'm 19 going on 20. I don't have a job. I'm practically starving. They spend all the money on booze and weed. I can't join the military. I can't concentrate on college. There's drug addicts everywhere who seem intent on crashing at my house constantly. They all are a year younger and are going homeless. They all hate my guts. I got kicked out of the house today for no apparent reason. I can't go back, I've been slandered so much that I can't rely on anyone if I go homeless. Last time I got kicked out I couldn't rely on them. My former friends seem intent on ruining me like dogs. I haven't done a lot wrong, just said a bunch of **** I shouldn't have said. They just don't like me. Can't figure out why. I don't smoke with them. I've threatened to rat them out god knows how many times for slandering me behind my back, and causing me hell. My life sucks, and I get the feeling that I'm going to end up dead before I have the money to enjoy it. Tried contacting my aunt, supposedly they are full with other family members. I get any kind of gain and my family ruins it cause they don't want to see me succeed - out of envy or something. This kind of ****. Girl I'm interested in ends up leading me on for about six months to mess with me. Prime example: I'm sitting in the bedroom, listening to my mom talk about penis sizes while drunk with my new roommates of a month and telling them that she's slept with 47 men. Just to mess with me. I might just pack up **** to North Dakota and stay in a homeless shelter for all I care. Can I get some help before I end up dead or I strangle someone?
I want to escape from reality?
everyday i feel like this. my reality sucks. i hate myself, i barely have anyone in my life, i don't want to exist, etc. the list just goes on and on.. i actually just had a nightmare about someone close to me dying, and it got me thinking.. that everyone close to me is going to die one day and idk if i can deal with that.. there are some people who just deserve to live forever. i just want to escape from reality even more now because of that dream i had. idk how to cope with all of this i really don't
I want to escape my life, I am 14 and want to have an adventure of my own!!!!!!!?
My family is SO SO ******* annoying. I am 14.. And I HATE MY LIFE SO MUCH. my parents are separated, I don't even live with them.. My mom is in Hawaii and my dad is somewhere I don't know but he's bipolar and rarely talks to me. I'm in a boarding school where they take literally all my personal stuff and have no freedom. and the only family members I have with me now are my grandparents and aunt. WHO ARE SO FUCKJNG ANNOYING!! I'm sorry excuse me, but they are so weird and it annoys the **** out f me. They are old and old traditions and my grandma is literally the 1% of the population type. Freaks. Crazy bitches and freaks. I have NO freedom! I was not born this way!!!! I want to live an exciting life , (I live in New York City) and get to do plenty of cool things. But I live around people who are the opposite of that and is affecting me. I just want to run away but I am scared too, and vacation or escape. I'm going to Hawaii with my mom this whole summer., but I can't wait. I want to yell **** off !! And run away or drive away in a car if I could. Then get my own life. But I'm 14. So this sucks :( Hate my life.. What should I do? I have so much anger inside of me "I wish everyone would die" And I could go on top of a cliff and shout to the world and do WHATEVER I WANT.
What parts of your life would you most escape?
-Occasionally I can worry too much. -I would like to escape being a perfectionist, no use trying because nobody can be perfect but I wish I would not be obsessed about having everything perfect or just right. -Last thing I know a few people who get on my nerves that I would like to escape and never see again.
Why do I want to run away from the life I live?
This answer no longer relevant in light of OP's subsequently better explanation in Question Details. It is left here for legacy reasons.To the extent that I understand the question and without going into specifics, you feel trapped in the life that you've built for yourself, yet recognize that trying to change the course of it in some new direction may not lead to a better life/ mental condition. After all, your situation now is the result of your once trying to reach the present plateau, which in hindsight turned out to be a dud. Thus the instinctive, chiefly subconscious, but apparently conscious enough longing to escape it. A nice shortcut to start anew elsewhere; a revolutionary, rather than evolutionary solution. And then you again remember, it may be for worse. Hence your frustration. In conclusion: thinking of escape is your innermost safety valve.PS. I can change the edited title back for you, but, trust me, "running away from yourself" is sooooo amorphous, what does it even mean? whereas my edit "… from the life that I live" much more focused.
I don't want to live in reality anymore,how do i escape?
I can't stand my life,it's just not the life i wanted for myself.I feel like i should have better than what i do.I'm a good person,why don'i have better? I wish it was possible to just smoke some weed and just live in that "high" because its a hella lot better than this reality.How can i escape reality?