I hate my life, i just want to die?
I really don't see any point in living any more. My husband cheated on me with his ex wife two times, my job sucks my boss puts me down and doesn't care about my opinions. I feel like a nobody, i feel like my life just doesn't matter to anyone. I have also been sick it hurts to get up and go to work, my muscles are in so much pain. My heart is in so much pain, my husband says he is sorry but he doesn't act like it, he just wants me to be happy again and move on, but i cant do that because i am mad and i am hurt so don't i have a right to feel that way? This whole world is awful, i am a nice person and i do nice things for people and i don't deserve the crap i get all the time. Nice people really do finish last i guess. I hate everything people are so mean and no one cares about any one else and everyone is so selfish. Why is this world so cruel? The economy sucks and people are losing their jobs and people are starving to death including me, both me and my husband work but we cant afford to buy food, we go to the food pantry and they can only give you a week supply for a month. Life is just so bad i don't want to be on this planet anymore. I am 24 years old and i hate the direction my life is going and i don't see it getting any better. My husband is 34 years old and is a jerk for thinking i should get over this by now. I dont want to live on a planet that sucks the life out of you and makes you work your *** off your whole life just so you can die in an old folks home alone when your 90. This world sucks, the heathcare system sucks and i have bills up the you know what because i am sick, what the hell is that about! I just cant believe that this is what my life has come to sitting here complaining about it. Why cant my life be good? I work hard and i get up at 5am every morning and work untill 3pm then i go to college, i am trying its not like im sitting here doing nothing about my sucky life its just that things are not getting any better. Please someone talk to me. Help me.
How do I gain control of my classroom?
I've been a preschool teacher for 3 years and have worked and volunteered in many elementary schools. The preschool I am teaching at now has got the most out of control 3 and 4 year olds I have ever had to deal with. During preschool, I am teaching 12 students (I have one teacher's aid) 8 of my students are average and pretty well behaved, but I have 4 boys (1 is a foster child and going through some difficult times, another I believe to have mental disabilities, however when he wants to learn, he is pretty smart) I am spending so much time trying to keep these boys on task that the rest of my class is being neglected and I'm beginning to fall behind in my curriculum. Everything in that class is a night mare, even when we split into 2 groups in separate rooms. Right now we are trying the traffic light warning system and they go home with a red light every preschool (preschool is only 2 1/2 hours long) Positive praise doesn't make much difference, the parents don't seem to be working with these children at home, it's embarrassing when a parent or my boss walks in and my classroom is in disaster mode. Many of my 3 and 4 year olds are at a 2 1/2 year old level and a lot of it is because we're not learning anything in the classroom. Any suggestions are appreciated.