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Why do I find alcohol drinkers disgusting?

When you know why people drink and what are the benefits of drinking alcohol you should begin to love alcohol;Taste: Beers have hundreds of different notes of flavours and the malts and hops, alcohol like absinthe has notes of anise and fennel similarly wines have different flavoursAroma: Each beverage has its own fragrance just like its unique taste. Nutrition: It has calories, and is highly nutritious has b vitamins and good beer is like liquid bread, wine has its own health benefits: antioxidants and flavonoids, resveratrol, and phenols fight choelserol and plaque and prevent cancer. Medicine: In high concentrations alcohol is the most potent antiseptic and kills almost all bacteria and viruses in the body. Thus it is an edible antiseptic which eliminated germs and disease in the body.According to the CDC "Ethyl alcohol, at concentrations of 60%–80%, is a potent virucidal agent inactivating all of the lipophilic viruses (e.g., herpes, vaccinia, and influenza virus) and many hydrophilic viruses, alcohol is also an antibacterial." Relaxation: Alcohol is an excellent tranquilizer and sedative. It is a drug with psychoactive effects.Sexual desire: Because it is a sedative and tranquilizer alcohol sedates the blood vessels in the penis gonads and sexual organs and it also exerts a antagonist action in the gonads where it blocks the glands from producing testosterone in the testicles thereby reducing sexual desire. Hence alcohol is a remedy for hypersexuality or high sexual desire. This is why young men would drink rum on long voyages after drinking a little rum they would have no frustrating sexual desire.Dutch courage: Alcohol gives courage and reduces fear and anxiety also called liquid courage and used by soldiers or to overcome anxious situations.

Is it frustrating as a genius knowing you or your work won't amount to anything?

yes it can be very frustrating. but it is always frustrating when your expectations are not met. if you set an expectation that you cant meet, you will always be frustrated. so think about what you really want out of life. personally i just want to be happy. now i need to figure out what i need to do to make sure i am happy.i can make myself happy by faking it till i make it. but there are certain things that would be dealbreakers. i cant really be happy without some things. so what would those be?money? no, ive had power before, money is not important to me anymore. when most things can be gained for nothing money loses its valuestatus? no way, i dont want too much attention. i learned a long time ago that if you have things others want it just makes you a target. been there before and it was too stressful.sex? yes, i need sex and love. but i have no desire to be promiscuous. i am interested in only having one sexual partner who only wants to be with me as well. that seems difficult to find. i am sure it will happen some day. the qestion is can i be happy without it? not  too sure.family? i have my kids and i dont need more. but they make me happy. i couldnt be happy without my kids. drugs and alcohol? i actually have gotten past the tipping point where i cannot experience happyness without a dopamine influencing agent. i need this to be happy. without my adiction, it would be at least 5 years before i could be happy about anything. autonomy? this is absolutely necessary for my happyness. the ability to survive by my own wits. i need that. it means i cant be happy if someone else provides for my survival. this is why i dont take unemployment or welfare. so what do i need to be happy? a sexual partner who is committed to me, my family, my addictions, and a job. i dont have all of those so i cannot be truely happy. so now i know what is frustrating me. i dont have a job or a partner who is committed to me. i can get a job easy enough, for now i am still surviving on my wits without it though. my problem is finding a woman who shares interests with me. that is pretty difficult. most women want money and to them that is a higher priority than i can be comfortable with. i am incompatible with most women. so i dont even bother searching anymoreyeah, it can be frustrating.

What is the most frustrating problem you have had when dealing with the VA?

I'm not a veteran myself, my father was a 100% disabled Vietnam veteran until he passed away from an overdose roughly 10 years ago. For all of my life he was either in prison, in and out of VA pshych wards, or somewhere feeding his drug and alcohol addiction. In between that viscous cycle he would be trying to stay sober and mend relations with my sister and I. Unfortunately I have seen the VA do right by my father twice.When I was 18 (2001) after countless times (literally probably hundredS) of him having flash backs or mental breakdowns they declared him 100% disabled. He finally was able to stop stealing stuff to get by. Granted he still broke the law for stuff like driving on a suspended license or changing the spelling of his name here and there but really there was no harm to others after that…for the most part.The other time was when he died they buried him. They gave him an honorable service and I have a spot I can go to both love and hate him.Besides that, all they did was pump him full of drugs and ignore him the best they could. It legitimately felt as though they actively wanted to make his brain mush and ignore him as long as they could until he died. My sister and I would take him in when he would begin to flash back and it would take a full day to even get him in to see someone even though they were on a first name basis with him. Even then they'd just throw more drugs at him and send him on his way. Literally the only time I can remember my father being remotely stable was when he himself would stop taking all drugs.I Hope they've changed policies in the past ten years because it makes me sad thinking about how the government treat folks who lay down thier lives to do the dirty work.

What is it like to have an alcoholic father?

My stepfather took the role of my dad at a very young age. You would think this was a good thing, as I once did. But sometimes when your missing something, its better to have lost it entirely. For example, you have an orange, but one day its gone. So your mom brings home a new orange, a defected orange. Rotting from the inside out. - What good does that rotten fruit do? but make you miss more the orignial you once had?.....anywaysAn alcoholic is one thing. An angry alcoholic is another.My Stepdad had the same routine, and still does to this day, Wake up. Go to work. Maybe drink a couple beers. Come home and continue until hes surrounded by useless empty cans, like its an accomplishment. He would wake up from being passed out and stand in the kitchen eating a stick of butter or whatever else he could pull out of the fridge. And this is what my sister and i dreaded most. - To actually have to come in contact with him. He belittled me. Called me fat, made fun of my skin. Laughed at me like i was a joke. A home is a place of protection and comfort....but not this one. Screaming in my face while threatening to knock the braces down my throat when id come home (too late for him) from Wednesday night church. My mom drunk herself-looking away as to pretend it didnt exist.......We never had a relationship. Never went to anything together. Yet being my stepfather he found it a priority to rule my life. - Like he got a kick out of it. The belt whippings. The punishments....but never to see a smile.There are two memories that stick out the most.-The time he came in. and pulled my hair to the carpet like an animal. screaming in my face, unaware of what id done. (Not that it mattered because theres some poeple who dont even care for a reason-let alone trying to reason with an alcoholic)-And the times id sleep in my sisters room downstairs with her because she was so scared. He would come in her room some nights and piss in her closet because he had no idea where he was. so we would lay there as still and quiet as possible. Invisible. Praying we didnt draw his attention or bring him back to "reality"- and when he would stand in the kitchen for hours devouring random chip bags or cold pizza , we would pee in pans in her room just so we wouldnt have to face him as we walked by to go to the bathroom.its embarrassing yes. and unfortunate. but these things do happen to more than youd think. and far worse than he.