I hate myself because I'm fat nobody likes me?
No, you're not fat. You're merely a kid who is depressed, has a misguided image of herself and needs to build confidence and self esteem. You also have a bit of an eating disorder. So, you need to start being honest with people. Tell your parents, teachers, school counselor, doctor what's going on. Tell them how you feel, what you do, etc. YOu need to be seen by a therapist and get some help for this. If you don't get help, you're going to end up in a full-blown eating disorder which will kill you. That is what eating disorders do. No, you're not ugly. Just because some kids say it, doesn't make it true. What's important is that you see yourself as is and learn to love yourself. You're depressed and can't see yourself as you are right now. Beating yourself up isn't going to help. You can have all the friends you want...but you have to get better, start seeing yourself realistically, learn about proper nutrition, stop the eating disorder and start gaining confidence. You don't have to be society's idea of thin or pretty to have friends. Anyone can have friends. It's all about loving yourself and having confidence. 1000 calories a day isn't a "ton." It's normal...in fact it's slightly higher. You have to eat in order to lose weight. Getting A's and B's doesn't make you smart or dumb. It means you do well in school. Intelligence is far more complicated than a letter grade. Getting a B isn't the end of the world and I don't know why you think it is. I doubt anyone thinks you're ugly or dumb. I think this all comes from you. I should know...I was very similar to you when I was a kid. YOu need to start talking to people about what's going on so you can get help. Don't end up the way I did. I got through it all....so can you. But I got help later than you and I wouldn't recommend that. If you want help, you need to start asking for it from your parents, doctor, counselor, teachers.
I'm extremely selfish? I have no friends?
I have depression so I don't know if this is relevant. By "no friends" I mean in the sense of people who genuinely love and care about me. If my 'lunch acquaintances' actually give a damn, I don't see it. There have been people who have had deep relationships with me, only for the last words to go along the lines of: "you're/that's so selfish, arrogant" etc. Sometimes I see how I am self-centered but I don't know how not to be. I've been fighting a lot of battles in my life and it just never seems the time to stop ruminating and care. Every time I try to think about love or true friendship it feels like I'm being ripped apart so I try to demoralize things like that and make people feel like s*** if they talk to me about it. I don't agree with social conventions either, I mean I sort of belittled a funeral once and I don't think people ever forgot that. Many a time people are actually kind, but I won't have problems being a 'taker' in the relationship because I believed that they didn't care. I don't know how to change. It's painful and I've been trying but I don't pick up social cues that people are uninterested or offended, so it's usually too late. I just feel ripped off being nice to everybody because then I'll come home and think, 'nobody actually noticed any difference'... What do I do? Ironically, I don't want to get hurt again.
I think I'm the only teenager that has no close friends?
It took me a long to to find friends I truly got along with very well. I had always kind o drifted and no one sem to seek out my friendship. What changed was that one day I realized that there will be people who hate you no matter what you do, what you say, what you wear. Try sitting beside a quiet kid, or the new girl. When you interact with people start off my complementing them, maybe say "I like your shirt", or "your really good at math", or something along those lines. Try to be a positive person, who can see the best in any situation. Don't give in to the feelings of hurt you are expiriencing. Keep pushing through because one day you WILL find people who enjoy spending their time with you as much as you do with them. If you liike closely you will notice there are other who do not have a close group of friends. Like someone else suggested if there is extreme bullying going on try switching schools. With a new start things could be much easier. Good luck dear. :)
I want to kill myself tonight. I'm not trying to get attention?
I didn't read the other answers so sorry if I repeat anything but honestly 90% of them are the same crap these posts always get "Don't kill yourself, god loves ypu, you're beautiful!" As for your situation I'm in a bit of a similar spot, I'm 16, no job, no girlfriend, VERY few aquaintances, no real friends, I'm not in the best spot in school either. I'm by far no expert on this I can't tell you life will be all perfect and how I made my life perfect because it isn't I cut myself and hide it to handle all those negative thoughts I can't talk to anyone about. However despite all my flaws I KNOW suicide isn't the answer. I'm not saying that because I care if you live or not so much because well lets face it, the world is over populated as it is and people die everyday if you go then you're only harming yourself and the people around you. Now idk your religion and have no desire to shove one down your throat but I am personally Athiest and believe after you die you just don't exist pretty much, you're just dead. Now that's not as nice as it sounds, feeling regret, pain, and suffering and such is a hell of a lot better than not being able to feel or hell even think at all. Plus things WILL get at least a little better eventually, it's the nature of the universe, don't just give up, it doesn't solve ****. Good luck.
I don't care about having friends and I don't get attached to people. Can anyone else relate?
I can relate exactly to what you are saying. There are a lot of people in this world, and I have tried really hard to connect with them. But I don't have any "friend-friends" either. I have a lot of acquaintances, but I have realized that I don't want or need close friends.Most of it is because previously my close friends either took and took and took from me and I realized that they really didn't want my friendship, just my stuff. Or they tried to give me advice, and when I made choices that didn't agree with what they had told me to do, they would get really mad. I actually told one person to stop trying to be my mom or my personal shrink!Some of us just thrive on independence, and solitude. Maybe you are one of those persons.
How do you respond to the phrase “nobody likes you”?
Multiple personality activated. Initiate hypothetical situations. Summon the beast.Best friend - Nobody likes you.Me - Oh, you crazy bastard. Give me a hug.Manager - Nobody likes you.Me - Look who's talking.Nemesis - Nobody likes you.Me - Oh, is “nobody” your sister by any chance? Tell her I hate her brother.Professor - Nobody likes you.Me - Did you confirm with your daughter ? *Wink*Girl friend - Nobody likes you.Me - You look fat.Neighbour - Nobody likes you.Me - In that case, I hope you don't mind my dog pooping at your place.Mom - Nobody likes you.Me- What did you do to my mom, you alien ?Food - Nobody likes you.Me - I've got you sweetheart.Random stranger - Nobody likes you.Me - I am Groot.Random stranger - What ?Me - I am groooot.Random stranger - You're crazy.Me - I AM GROOOOOOOOT.Hi ! Hope we meet again under my next post. Until then..Sayonara!