How do I get over my best friend dying, it has been 5 years and I still miss her so much.?
My friend was diagnosed with cancer, they night before she was going to be given a bone marrow transplant and all hope was so high that she would fully recover after two years of cemo she had a fit and pulled out her hickman line, septacima set in and she died hours before the transplant - life just seems so unfair, i think i could havre coped better if we werent told that she would be fine, i cant make close friendships and bottle up my feelings and then bang I weep for days - any advice would be welcome
PLEASE HELP !!! I'm dying inside....?
Here’s a short description of me: I’m 16, average looking guy, good at sports, not a nerd, very smart, good person, a little shy (only when with girls)…this is me: http://s14.postimage.org/z5haprkxd/21779_3952354167286_1707844256_n.jpg You ever feel like that your insides just exploded with emotion because you bottle up your feelings and just put the best "happy face" that you can put on ? Then go through school every week, seeing others be happy while you're just standing there awkwardly, thinking how you want to be them and that you're dying on inside. You even start to feel like a huge failure in every way possible, you can't even look at yourself in the mirror anymore cause you hate what you see. That's me. At school, people are making fun of me and calling me freak, fool and I don’t even know why ! Whatever I say, it’s stupid or not funny and at the end I’m the guy that nobody likes. I talk to people and to everyone at school (when there are just 2 of us), but when there is a group of people, I’m the one who doesn’t belong there and they want me away. I have some friends but they are not 'true' friends (they are in my life so I can just talk to someone). I never had a girlfriend. I have never been loved. I have never been hugged. Never. I have never been looked in the eye and told from the heart that I matter. Every girl I ever loved hated me for no reason. I think I'm not ugly...am I ? I loved one girl so much, but I got heartbroken becouse I never got loved back. I'm really sad becouse I'm single for so long. Nobody cares about me exept my family. Nobody knows that I’m cold and depressed. I'm not emo, I don't do drugs, drink (ok, sometimes I drink, but I never got drunk), i'm perfectly normal and so good to other people and life is returning me THIS way...it's just ****** up....
PLEASE HELP ME !!!! I'm dying inside........?
Here’s a short description of me: I’m 16, average looking guy, good at sports, not a nerd, very smart, good person, a little shy (only when with girls)…this is me: http://s14.postimage.org/z5haprkxd/21779_3952354167286_1707844256_n.jpg You ever feel like that your insides just exploded with emotion because you bottle up your feelings and just put the best "happy face" that you can put on ? Then go through school every week, seeing others be happy while you're just standing there awkwardly, thinking how you want to be them and that you're dying on inside. You even start to feel like a huge failure in every way possible, you can't even look at yourself in the mirror anymore cause you hate what you see. That's me. At school, people are making fun of me and calling me freak, fool and I don’t even know why ! Whatever I say, it’s stupid or not funny and at the end I’m the guy that nobody likes. I talk to people and to everyone at school (when there are just 2 of us), but when there is a group of people, I’m the one who doesn’t belong there and they want me away. I have some friends but they are not 'true' friends (they are in my life so I can just talk to someone). I never had a girlfriend. I have never been loved. I have never been hugged. Never. I have never been looked in the eye and told from the heart that I matter. Every girl I ever loved hated me for no reason. I think I'm not ugly...am I ? I loved one girl so much, but I got heartbroken becouse I never got loved back. I'm really sad becouse I'm single for so long. Nobody cares about me exept my family. Nobody knows that I’m cold and depressed. I'm not emo, I don't do drugs, drink (ok, sometimes I drink, but I never got drunk), i'm perfectly normal and so good to other people and life is returning me THIS way...it's just ****** up....
My Wife Left me and I'm Dying inside...HELP!!!?
Okay, I know I shouldn't be asking this to complete strangers but I figure someone else has been in my shoes and I just need some advice. My wife is falling in love with another guy and she left me. I'm stuck in this apartment with all these memories and I can't leave till at least July or August. The pain is almost too much for me to bear. We were so tight and she was my best friend! I felt closer to her than anyone else in my life. When she told me she didn't love me anymore I wanted to die. (Don't worry, I'm not crazy), but it just hurt that much. If anyone has lost someone they love in any way, can you PLEASE PLEASE PRETTY PLEASE let me know how to get rid of this hurt, get over this pain. I still love her so so so much and she doesn't want anything to do with me. I'll take any help and advice I can. And I'm planning on getting some cousoling, but I just wanted to start here first. Thank you.
I feel like im dying inside!!!!?
Hi Jessica, I took a look at your other questions, and most of your concerns seem to center around relationships. I would suggest that you try to avoid making any major decisions about your life right now, based on one or two relationships. Try to focus your life and time on completing a few clear short-term goals. (i.e. losing weight, getting back in school, helping out around the house.) Accomplishing physical goals will increase your feeling of self worth, and help lift you out of your depression. As you begin to feel the fog lift, you can make plans for additional mental and spiritual challenges. There are other people out there that feel as bad as you do. Try to help them feel a little better.
Please, please help. I am dying inside I'm so embarrassed. I'm shaking. I've been feeling AWFUL all day...?
my computer has an application called "photobooth." it takes photos and short videos. the photos and videos are private (not on the internet or anything) unless somebody opens up the application. my friend was on my computer and opened it up, and saw that i had recorded a couple obscene videos of me masturbating. i did them without thinking. i was just messing around. i planned on deleting them, but for some reason forgot to. one of the videos had an up-close freeze frame of my breasts. it was a very shocking sight. i'm SO embarrassed. i'm shaking thinking about it. she closed out of it quickly and then gave me this shocked wide-eyed look and was like omgggg... i don't know what to do! this is the worst feeling ever! i'm not sure if she's going to tell anybody or not. we're kind of good friends. but i'm sure she is freaking out wanting to tell at least SOMEBODY. which makes me nervous i deleted the videos of course, but that doesn't delete my shitty feeling. today i talked to her online and stuff and pretending nothing had happened. should i ignore it? or can i make up an excuse? is there anything i should say? how can i feel better? i literally want to cry. i feel sooooo embarrassed and shitty. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!! I FEEL SO BAD! LIKE I'M SHAKING! I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!
What should I do? I feel like I'm slowly dying inside...?
I am very much in love with someone and have been for 5 yrs...we dated for 3 1/2 yrs. and then he broke up with me for someone else....since then he has broken up with her and we have resumed a "friendship"....we are the best of friends and he says he loves me but only as a "friend"....well now...the old girlfriend is trying to get back in again and I know that he really cares for her....he has been talking to her again and I know it's only a matter of time before they might possibly get back together or that he might even meet someone new for that matter. We have so much fun together and I love him more than life itself, I would do anything for him. I can't bear to lose him again....I'm thinking irrationally and I just want to end this misery I have inside of me....I can't make it go away....I can't stop loving him...I've tried to meet other people but no-one in 5 yrs. has even begun to come close....is there anyone out there that is going thru something similar? I feel dead inside
My best friend ignored me like nothing is in between us. She seems happy with others . What should I do?
What is being a “best friend” mean to you? I mean what are your expectations from a person if he/she is something that you consider them to be. Are you more concerned with the fact whether “your best friend” gives you the same best-friend feeling or not .Because it seems to me , you are in a unwanted dilemma regarding her behavior towards you. Figuring out what to do next depends upon her and you (partially in the latter case) . If this best friend thing has been going on for few years then some serious misunderstanding issues have caused this situation to arise. Believe me life becomes a lot more easier if we start talking to each other and sharing ,rather than keeping it inside us to water the seed of ignorance and mistrust.Believe me the above reason is the most probable cause to your problem. Well what you did as a result of no response from her was also not wise. I mean just think if she had some doubts regarding you or anything (any problem), she didn’t share it with you. Girls often suffer from loads of confusion and depths of unnecessary thoughts;). In short they overthink. Doesn’t matter where they come from? She was not sure about issue ,petty or major.I would rather you give her some time and then approach her and solve this problem.Brother in some cases ,that I have seen in practical life, They distance themselves if they see the increasing closeness . But it doesn’t happen always. Its just a thought.As far as her being happy in the company of others is seen , maybe she genuinely feels so or she may have done this on purpose. I can’t say for sure. Understanding their motives is hard at times but not impossible. So either wait and watch ….or go ahead and take the stand. I am sure everything will work out with your best friend.After all“Friendship is not about who you’ve known the longest ,but its about who came in your life and walked the deepest in your heart and that too unintentionally”. I am sure you can figure the rest !!And if it doesn’t goes according to you, the just accept this simple fact that her company with you was till this point ,even if you don’t believe in philosophy. Let her go.:)