Is there something wrong with me?
i'm an 18 year old girl. i wear t.shirts, sweatshirts, baggy pants and etnies shoes. i have short blond hair and never wear make up. i go skate and play soccer. i read manga and fantasy novels, watch horror and splatter movies, listen to metal and play bass in a band. i like RPGs and violent videogames. i have tons of friends, both male and female. i'm a lesbian and my female friend with benefits is my best friend, we have known each other for about a year before having sex. i burp, fart, spit and cuss. i adore studying math, next year i want to enroll in physics at college and then become a researcher.
Is there something wrong with me?
Lately I’ve been thinking something is wrong with me. Family and friends say I’m a negative person because I always never see the bright side of things. I never thought myself negative but now I can’t help but feel I can be very negative. Then there’s times at work or anywhere else if a situation is too stressful I get upset and have emotional break downs because the stress is too much. And I don’t seem to have ambition or confidence. I always look on the past and how people treated me. Is there anything wrong with me if so how can I fix it by myself? I don’t feel that anyone will or won’t be able to help me
Is there something wrong with me (women and girls)?
It's because you are so young and it seems your breasts are growing faster than the rest of your body so your body might not be "prepared" for the change yet. Try not to worry what really helps is CoCo Butter, it's a cream that you put on strecth marks to make them go away. It helps for me because i have stracht marks on my legs. Coco Butter you can find at any store and it's not expensive at all just about 3 to 5 dollers, good luck and i hope they go away. Also this is very normal so try not to worry. :D
Is there something wrong with me? Cuz thats what my mom thinks.?
Your mom is trying to comfort you, but she's doing it badly. When she compares what you are going through to what she went through, what she's trying to say is: "I know exactly how you feel, I went through the same and worse, and don't believe those things those people say because you are beautiful, and you will survive this, just like I survived it." Unfortunately, you are getting the message from it that she's trying to trivialize what you went through. But I don't think she MEANS to do that, it's just that sometimes people don't know what the right thing to say is, so they end up saying something unhelpful. I think she's also trying to make these things seem trivial in the sense that eventually, when you are older, they will seem trivial to you. But right now they're horrible, and I'm really sorry you are going through them. The only thing I can suggest is that you watch the "It Gets Better" videos on YouTube. You're so much better than this and you will get through it.
Why do I always want something to be wrong with me? :/?
Kate has a really good answer! I would just like to add that I lost my father to cancer two years ago. He was diagnosed with esophageal cancer in August and by October 1st, he was gone. I took him to chemo treatment, fed him through a feeding tube that was inserted into his stomach, watched him lose the ability to do anything on his own and finally watched him die in a hospice after listening to a horrible "death rattle" for hours. Cancer is nothing to wish for. I understand that you really do not want the cancer itself, but something is driving you to want to be in such a helpless state, that you dare to wish for a terminal illness. You went into great detail about wanting to be sick, but did not tell us how your family life is. Are you happy? Do you have problems at home? Do you get enough attention from your parents? I wonder if something is going on that makes you want an illness that would cause you to need support from others. At any rate, you can rest assured that you do indeed have something wrong with you...you have a victim mentality and need to talk to a psychologist. There HAS to be a reason that you feel this way. I believe that you can overcome this and live a happy, healthy life that does not include reading about various illnesses. You really need to channel all your energy into something positive. You are young and should not be burdened with these horrible thoughts. I wish you the best of luck and pray that you get the help you need.