I'm so depressed and lonely. I just hate crying myself to sleep every night. I just feel like my life isn't worth anything at all. What should I do?
Ive been there, feeling lonely, crying in bathrooms, having suicidal thoughts. It's tough, I know. You feel depressed, unloved, friendless, lifeless. It feels like nobody cares, your existence doesn't matter. My family didn't know why I was angry, frustrated and got easily irritated. To them it was just a phase that would soon pass.But it didn't. It went on and on. I decided to go see a doctor, but didn't. I was scared of dying because of those medicines. It didn't like the idea of medicines making me happy. I wanted to be happy from within. I wanted it to be permanent.I ordered some books online. I had always been a reader, but hadnt read a book in a few years. I decided to do what I enjoyed. I immersed myself in my world. I also started maintaining a journal for all anger and frustrations. I would write down my thoughts there. After writing down several pages, actually many, my mind would calm down.I let nature heal me. Thankfully we have a garden at home, and many birds and small animals reside here. I would sit in my balcony for hours and enjoy their adventures. It was calming for me and always brought a smile on my face.I told my best friends I felt lonely, depressed and just lifeless. Even though we dont live nearby and haven't met in ages we share everything. They told me I could call or message them any time. they don't judge me nor call me mad and crazy like my parents. They make me smile with their stupid one lines.I began observing people around me, how unhappy they were in their lives. There are dramas in every household but very rarely will they expose their problems. We all are unhappy in some ways, we all feel lonely at times. Don't let your loneliness kill you. Don't let your bad time make you bad. Keep yourself busy. Go out frequently, join some meetups. Erase unwanted people from your life. Don't let anyone dull your shine. Dont expect things from people. Not even love. Be your own company. Let your freckles talk. dont suppress your feelings. Maintain distance from people who don't understand you. Even if they are your own parents. Spend more time with people who make you forget your troubles.Spead happiness. Feed the birds. Try crazy nail colours. Get a new haircut. Be happy. Do things that make you happy. Be the happiest version of yourself.
13 depressed , suicidal thoughts , help?
Let me tell you a story. When I was 15 my best friends little sister was 12. she started to feel like you do now and she told nobody. She began to cut herself and her personality changed, but none of us took much notice. why not? because before this all started she was the bravest liveliest person I knew and I thought there was no way she could possibly feel so low when she made our lives so great. A year later, my friend found a stash of pills in her room. From then on, we searched her room regularly and regularly found these pills. We didn't try as hard as we should have, We didn't do all we could. And because of that she killed herself 3 years ago, at 13 years of age. I have never felt such remorse, such regret and such pain. what we could have done, should have done. she will never realize how much she meant to us and all because we saw her as that fun loving kid and not the depressed girl she had become. Through the years I've watched her family fall apart. They struggle everyday to come to terms with the loss of their little girl. They put on a brave face but even a stranger can tell they're still in pain. they take medication, which helps, but this is something that has affected their lives forever. they will forever regret their last words. They'll always wish they had done something sooner. That guilt will never go away. At some stage in all our lives we feel down and depressed. Some experience it worse then others. But if you don't demand help, if you don't clearly state the help you need and want, then a temporary case of depression for you can turn into a lifetime of misery and hurt for everyone you know. Trust me, the guilt is worse then the depression. Of course, you shouldn't feel like this. You need to speak to someone, but not everyone knows it. Tell your parents. It will be a tough conversation and it will be upsetting, but in the long run, it is the best possible move you can make. I'm begging you to ask for help. No matter how low you feel, there is always a way out. there is always someone who cares for you and loves you, even if they don't always show it. Hon, that's what family is. Someone who surrounds you with love and support although sometimes it's not obvious. Please ask for help.
My job is making me depressed.?
I have a part time job at Michael's craft store. It's not a bad job at all. The customers are usually very nice and my coworkers are ok. But the thought of going makes me sob. Like gut wrenching horrible crying and i can't stop. it. Even on my days off i'm crying about it because i don't want to go. I don't know why. I'm so stressed out and overwhelmed now, i've only been working her 2 months and i want to quit so badly but i have a loan to pay off by september...i can barely eat and my sleep is less than adequate. Sometimes i get suicidal over it because i feel like dying would suck less than going to work. I know other people have it worse and that just makes me hate myself more because i'm sitting here crying over a part time job when people are working 3 jobs just to reach ends meet which makes me more depressed and it's a vicious cycle of me just crying and wanting to die over this god forsaken retail job.
Being single is making me depressed?
I am a happy person with myself, but as soon as I see a couple or realize that I have no significant other, I get pretty down and depressed. There will be nights that I cry myself to sleep with such negative thoughts. I have great friends, family, and a bright future ahead of me after I finish graduate school next spring, but being single just really bothers me. I dumped my first gf about 6 months ago after being together for 2 months. At the time, I didn't even think about being single again, I just thought about the reasons why I needed to end my relationship. Now I look back and think about the reasons and how maybe I should have worked with them even though I wouldn't be able to change my ex-gf at the time. I'm just tired of feeling like this.. I'm losing interest in things I used to love before my past relationship, as well as during the relationship. I have to fake being happy and normal around my family and friends, but deep inside I am dying.
Do you ever cry yourself to sleep???
last time i checekd i still have balls so no, lol.
I love everyone, but I hate myself?
I'm usually very nice to other people. I wish the best for everyone, and I believe everyone has good in them. I also don't like leaving anyone behind. But I still get depressed a LOT, and I don't know why. It feels like everyone is bad on the outside but good in the inside, while I am good on the outside but bad in the inside. I am usually nice to people, but when someone acts like they like me a lot, I treat them like crap. I feel very aloof a lot. I often feel it is terrible for someone else to feel unhappy, but for me to feel unhappy it is normal. Last year, 2 people I know in the Army died in Iraq. A few weeks ago, one of my buddies from basic training died from rpg attack in Baghdad. They were all assigned to 1st Infantry division. I was so depressed when I found out they died. Seeing their pictures of their families at their funerals bring me to tears. I keep wanting to reclass as an infantryman, and I keep hoping to get assigned to 1st infantry. My mom cannot wait years of army service to expire, but I insist on being a soldier, especially for 1st-3rd id. Honestly, the idea of me in that kind of danger doesn't seem too bad, in fact it might be a relief. I think I want myself to die. I keep thinking, is something wrong with me? maybe there is, but maybe its okay because I'm good soldier.