I sold my soul to the devil?
I've been going through a very hard time in my life. i suffer from depression and i am engaged in activities such as smoking, drug anf being overweight. I am 15 years old and im in highschool im popular and have freinds that are boys but the girl never talk to me or wanna have a relationship tand that hurts me. I was at a party and no one talked to me and i was left standing in the corner by myself. i went home and cried myself to sleep. Today i was so sad i looked up how to be famous so i read about selling your soul. I looked in the sky and said satan if you give me a chance to reach people through making me rap and giving me money, fame and girls that i would worship me. Immediatly after i felt different i was raised a Christian i feel i've left god. now anytime i think of the deal i have a werid feeling in my chest and i lose my breath. I feel like i dont care about anyrthing. I am so scared and regret doing this i dont want to go to hell and if i ever told my family about thhis they would disown me. i dont want to go to hell i live a good live volunteer at a church even though i never attend church, help animals and want to get a job helping. i help the homeless im friendly and nice to everyone but i feel im ruined my life Please help i only want answers from people who believe in this please help asap
Prosperity gospel... what does it say about the poor?
If God grants prosperity and creature comforts to "His own," then are the millions of people who are in poverty and starvation just out of luck as "not His own"? Please don't take this as a diss against the "prosperity gospel" teaching. I just don't understand its basic tenets. How is it ok for us to amass material things we don't need (status symbols) and ignore our starving brothers and sisters in our own communities and over the world? Any insight to this would be helpful to me.
My sister died yesterday after commiting suicide,And i found a suicidal note and this is what it said....?
“Dear Mom,dad and sister, I love you with all my heart. I just wasn’t meant for this world! I hope I can find a place of peace and happiness, a place I am child enough to live, . I love you! I hope you can truly believe me. Maybe on my journey I’ll find Jesus. Pray for me mom. Pray I will find happiness. I hurt so bad inside! I want it all to go away. I want a new beginning. I am not afraid to die mom. I’m just so afraid of tomorrow! I hate my school and i hate all the people in it, Least i wont have to go through all the name calling againg. you all though i was ok,well you were wrong, my soul has beeen blackend and shatterd into a million pieces,im scared! making holes and slashing into my tiny arms,The trickling of the blood running down my arm just for that second made my life a bit better. everyone hates me at school no one likes me,but why? i havent done anything to them,I smile at them and they just laugh, I wasnt meant to be born i was a mistake,The kids at school are making me feel like s h i t. There making my life a living HELL! Your so pretty sis why cant i be like you? Maybe jesus can change me,how i would like to look, I Want to be free of this pain,school i will no longer have to bare the bullys,my shatterd soul is a piece of ****.! dont cry for me please,theres no need to feel sorry for me im in such a better place now! To my fellow classmates who made me feel like s h i t when they should of focused on there education, To those who never spoke to me,probably never knew my name! Just remember my family didnt make my life a mysery but school did,my life would be awsome if i didnt have to go to school im just a stupid 13 year old girl who needs to die,i love you mom, I love you dad,I love you sis<333 This is me now! me my mom and dad never knew she self harmed and got bullied i feel so bad now not knowing, what can i do?
"Christians"do you have a testimony of God answering a Prayer of yours?
i experienced angels saving my life on 3 occasions i can accnt for. once at 9, when the garage was going to crush and suffocate me i saw a presence and realized the door was being lifted off me and i was able to crawl from underneath it. once at 13, i walked in front of a school bus and was thrown backwards off my feet onto the curb, and once at 17 at home w/ the flu i was falling from dizziness head on into an iron rail and was flung, midfall, sideways where i landed on my back instead i praise god for the rescue. there are others where i was held up from going into traffic on the highway and there was a huge oil rig truck accident killed 3 carloads of people. god is good. he's preserved me for a reason! oh, i thought of another when i had broken up from this crazy guy. i was kind of on the lookout for him seeing as that was the reason i broke up w/ him in the first place. so i was riding home w/ my mom one evening and we saw this old raggedy car parked at the park. it looked empty when we passed but something told me as clear as day to "turn around now" and i did and i saw a figure sit up in the car and it began driving behind us. i knew it was him and we went strait to the police station instead. i was able to get a restraining order after that but you know...i probably wouldn't be here if not for that voice telling me to look exactly when i did
What brings about such hatred and anger?
Don't know, psyches are way too complicated, and something like this isn't going to arise out of an off-day. Still, a lot of challenging behaviours are triggered by a need/desire for control/influence/power. (If I can't get you to love me, I'll get you to hate me.) Even our 'normal' behaviours are, like the way young women devote so much time, money and energy into making themselves 'attractive' (relationships with others being one of the great uncontrollables in our lives). Just some examples to hopefully illustrate. I suggest a universal block. If you see this account, block it. And keep doing it for every new account. That's the control we have here and this is definitely a time when it's appropriate to use it.