Why Am I Obsessed With My Childhood

Why can't I get over my childhood crush?

I'm Not obsessed with him or in love with him. But he was my first crush, it lasted for 12 years and i still get butterfiles when i think of him. We were those two inseperable kids growing up, I have tons of pictures of him and I hugging eachother, one of him kissing me on the cheek and one of us holding hands when we were kids.

For some reason, even though I've had 4 boyfriends in the 6 years since I haven't seen him (All of these relationships lasted about a month each.) I still can't get him out of my head. I feel like that isn't a bad thing, but I don't know what to do about it. I'll be seeing him later this summer for the first time in 6 years and im honestly wondering what I should do. I highly doubt he will remember me, but is there anything I should do?

Why am i obsessed about my childhood?

You feel overwhelmed with life as do most adults. I am in my 50's have tried to make my life simplier for many years. I do have a much more simple life than most people my age b/c I don't work. I have no income & no health insurance though. I always wish I was someone who have parents that paid for college & were secure. It seems people with good incomes & jobs they love have a much more simple life than I do. They can pay to have someone clean their house or cut their lawn or all the many things I do without or have to do myself.

So I think it is actually normal at your age.

Hopelessly obsessed with cunnilingus like me?

From my childhood I have been fantasizing of doing cunnilingus to strange women but I never got intimate with any woman/girl untill my 21y. She was a wild promiscuous german girl but when I tried to lick her between her legs she pulled on my hair so strongly I could not even kiss her sensitive spot! I did not understand why she did not want me to do that but I obeyed nevertheless. It was not after I knew my future wife when I got a chance to lick a woman and she liked it. In the long years of our marriage (since Aug. 1975) I always enjoyed licking and sucking her vulva and only stopped when she got too excited and wanted penetration. As I seldom ejaculated in copulation I could do sex as long as I wanted but my wife wanted to stop after 15 min or so. She told me that her vulva got numb and sometime soared from the rubbing of our genitals. Later when I got older I also slept with whores. At first I hold myself from doing cunnilingus to them because of hygienic concerns but after the first few women I could not hold it any longer and I pushed all concerns aside. To be truthful I found that most women's vulva are tasting pretty sour (so it is not tasty at all) but the excitement from the pornographic imagery of doing it to strange women kept me licking even unattractive whores. It is the wild dangling pubic hair and the fleshy fatty skin around their vulvas that aroused my fantasy. I am now 64y and still happily married with my first wife but from time to time I still do fantasizing of being raped on my mouth by a strange amazon woman. In my fantasy the amazon woman getting wild from my arousaI was pressing and mouling my mouth with her vulva untill she came to orgasm. While she kept pressing to my face I happily sucked her vaginal fluid. I cannot imagine a more wilder scene than that it still arouse me like always. I think I will repeat it someday to a woman no matter who she is. It is not about relationship but purely for sexual enjoyment. I only hope that the women like it too (being licked and sucked to orgasm by a man's hungry mouth). This is all my true confession I cannot tell my loving wife. So please keep it secret to yourself. I wiould be happy if there are other men with the same obsession so I would not be alone with this strange behavior. The End

I'm afraid I might be a lesbian from my childhood experiences?

Okay, please, I know this story may sound stupid but you don't know how hard this is for me to say. When I was a child I accidentally stumbled along porn when surfing the TV and I used to watch it from time to time with my sister. We also used to "obsessed", in a way, with our mother's boobs, we weren't breastfed. I remember once I stole a pregnancy magazine from a grocery store because it had a child being breastfed on it. And one day, I was playing with my moms boobs and she snapped. She yelled at me, "Do you want to like girls?" I kept saying no and I was crying cause she grabbed my wrists and my sister was crying to. We never speak of that time again. I was 7 or 8 at the time. A year or two later, I was on youtube looking a girls kissing and my sister saw it in my browser history but I denied it. I'm now 13 and I'm haunted by this everyday, I afraid to go to sleep cause I'll think about it. I've recently been watching alot of lesbian porn and I keep pledging to stop but I also relapse when I think about these memories. I've never, EVER, had a crush on a girl. I currently have a crush on a boy now and I've had a off and on crush on him for 3 years now. My sister and I are practically OBBSESSED with Robert Pattinison, we think everything he does is cute, espeacially my sister. I want to have the classic family and perfect boyfriend, I think about what he'd be like every night, but then It's ruined when I think about those times. I don't want to be a lesbian, but I'm afraid the none of my male relationships are are going to work and I'm going to meet a woman, and I'm starting to think that it wouldn't hurt to try ne day. Someone, please assure me and I end up with the life I want to live. People say only you know deep down in your heart, but all I see is a jumbled up mess. Also, I never kissed anyone(that I remember), pathetic, I know. Except, my sister when we would "play" Romeo and Juliet. I always made her the boy cause she was taller lol, so it wasn't voluntary. I also had a "boyfriend" in preschool. Please help me.

I am obsessed with being a nymphet/underage/innocent/chil... I feel like I missed out on my childhood.?

I was quite a sheltered girl. Always had straight A's, didn't smoke, didn't drink, had only a few good friends. Now I am 18 and I feel like I never got to be a child, I am about to go to university and I feel like now I'm getting into that rebellious adolescent phase but everyone seems to be getting out of it.

I have this obsession with being a nymphet/child-like/innocent, about someone finding me being quite young arousing, I have this obsession of going back to being underage just so I could be a nymphet. I feel like I never got to experience exciting, forbidden relationships(I've kissed people and have gotten sexual to a certain degree with them but always with people my age). I want to be a little girl who loved stereotypical girly thinks like make-up, dresses, lollipops and dolls and was a bit rebellious(I'm not talking the extremes here). It's like people have always thought of me as a little adult and I'm sick of it. I've missed out my best years(high school years when you are really a teen) to depression and EDs and studying.

I'm OBSESSED with men.. is there something wrong with me?

It's hormones.Once you reach a certain age and are in a relationship the obsession with men fades,and it becomes more about babies and careers.