Why do I hate everything about me?
I have depression and anxiety. Saw a psychologist and told him about how my mother had to leave the country looking for the "American Dream" so we could have a better life, she left me and my sister back home with our father, whom a few months after decided he could not care for us and one day dropped us off at some relatives house to be raised by them for the next 6-7 years. I was verbally abused, and sometimes physically abused when I got in trouble.I was just worthless and a bad child. My father probably visit me 10 times within those years. When I turned 15 I got my permission to come to the USA with my mother, but when I got here I had no feelings for her, I mean I loved her, but I couldn't just hug her or tell her I loved her. I was told by the psychologist that I unconsciously blame her for everything I went through. I am 5'5 and 150lbs I feel fat, I've being told how far I've gotten since maybe 3 years ago by my own mother and other relatives. I am currently 22 years old. Also I dated someone for 5 years since I moved to the USA we met in high school and my mother said that it was my fault it did not work out, I tried dating again and she called me a whore. I stop dating and just started having fwb. I think currently am in love with someone, and that person might of felt the same way but as usual I messed it up. I always do.I never thought he could never fall for me, I'm fat, ugly, depress. And all I want to do lately is either disappear or die. I hate myself more now
Why do I hate everything?
AAAAAhhhhhhhhhh. You remind me me of myself. I fainted out of starvation and dehydration but somehow my mum revived me back. Believe me! that's an easy and sure fire way to die. When you pass out, your clock starts winding down. Just do what you like to like I did. I still hate those very same things when I did it back then. You don't have to change to live your life if it's really gonna help. Join a hate group like I did and dish it out on pathetic people. It feels great to spew misery. You can live to vent out your frustration. It will help you to feel better a lot. Trust me, If you wanna die, you will attract death so you will die anyway much sooner so churn it up and live your life the way you want to. Never listen to others advice on doing good things because it'll further drive you crazy. You got to eat and drink baby right away because if you faint, it might be too late when your friend finds. Do what floats your boat and don't care but just live. We are both miserable people born to make others lives miserable too. What's the fun when you die??
Why do I hate everything I write?
And how can I get past it? I love to write, don't get me wrong. Its just about the only thing I can really do that will put me back into a good mood no matter the circumstances. It can be about anything and everything, and at the time I write it, I feel good and I think I did well. However if I even so much as go back and re-read what I wrote I am overcome with disgust. I know I'm not a professional and I don't expect my writing to be perfect, but I hate that I can't even look back on my work and either feel proud or at least apathetic towards it. I used to write on fanfiction.net before it became so crippling, but its gotten to the point that I can't even go back and edit things. Its a terrible feeling that the one thing that could always give me peace is slowly being taken from me. Sure I can write, but I can never look back and thus can never really learn how to improve. I'm sick and tired of it. I know theres no magical solution, but any guiding words or things that may have helped you if you have ever felt this way would be much appreciated. Thank you.
Why do some metalheads hate everything?
Whenever I'm on youtube listening to an indie rock song or a reggae song or a hip hop song or something, there's always some douche bag who's like "this sucks, these guys have no talent, this makes my ears bleed" or something and then their reason is "because it's not metal" I can't stand this, and I'm not saying all metalheads are like that but, a lot of them are and it's really annoying. Like they say they hate rap because the lyrics only talk about drugs and sex and they have no talent because their beats are all created on the computer. What?? Rap isn't as much about the music as it is about the lyrics and most rappers are extremely talented lyricists. Like DMX, Tupac, Immortal Technique, Lupe Fiasco, Jedi Mind Tricks.. Even artists like Lil Wayne are really good, but people can't look past the few songs he does about drugs and sex and so they just assume that all of his songs are like that and that he's an awful rapper Also, with stuff like indie and alternative rock. A lot of metalheads seem to have this thinking that any rock music that isn't metal is just for p*ssies and requires no talent. I don't get that either. My favorite bands are Less Than Jake, Surfer Blood, The Dirty Heads, Mayday Parade, Bowling For Soup, Slightly Stoopid, The Kooks and Vampire Weekend and none of them are metal but they're all very talented musicians and songwriters and I like them because their music makes me happy and it's upbeat. I don't really like metal because it's so dark and angry and I'm generally a happy person so I'd rather listen to happy music, but if I told a metalhead that, they would freak out and call me a pussy. I just don't get why they get so mad when people don't like metal.
Why do I hate literally everything?
I don't know why but I hate everything in the universe, I don't think i'm depressed but i think i'm not delusional. I like my friends but when I really think about my relationships with people I start to hate them, its when ever I start to think about things I start to hate them, Though it is more then hating for no reason. Its more like when I think about things I see what they really are. can anyone help?
Why do i hate everything mainstream?
You hate things handed to you. You like to have your own opinions about what is good and what is not... Yet the mainstream media hands you your answer without contest. No doubt, some of those whom you listed; Tony Hawk and Sean White are very well the best... though you prefer to find out on your own instead of being told who the best is.
Why do my friends hate everything I like?
I'd say somewhere down the line they can't form their own opinions and they're probably afraid to say they like those things in fear of embarrassing themselves in front of the other two. Kudos to you for liking what you want.