I want to self harm again and I need help?
My parents have been going through a divorce for 7 months now and it has taken its toll on me in a negative way. I am 15 and female. 3 months ago, I got into self harming and cut myself twice. I told my 2 closest friends and my very close aunt after both times because I hated keeping it all in. She told my parents after the second time and they completely flipped out and are all worried about me still. I have been wanting to cut myself again for the past 3 months, but I haven't. I have come close and I need something to help me from doing it again because I don't want to hurt the people I love again or hurt myself for other's peoples issues. Please help me!!! And also, I would like to get therapy because a lot has happened to me the past year and I think I need help, but we seriously can't afford it so thats not gonna happen and I have tried to talk to my school guidance counselor, but that didn't help either.
I want to self-harm again?
So I stopped cutting early December 2011 obviously. I was hospitalized twice before that. So ya I haven't cut since then. Although I HAVE made an attempt to. I didn't work though because I just couldn't bring myself to do it.....there was not a reason to anymore....The reason I did it in the first place was because I fell somewhat in love with this girl and told her and my life was just terrible (or so I thought) during that, But whatever I couldn't do it. But now Im just crying....always crying for no reason. I use to talk to that girl all the time about this and now she hates me and the more I think about it the more it hurts me. I honestly just wanna slit my wrist and be done with everything sometimes. Im not going to though because I know it would hurt my family......The only reason I am not cutting now is because I have not blade to do it with nothing, But I want to SO bad, And I want to talk to her so bad but she wont talk to me at all ever no matter what I say. I'm over her just in case you were wondering. I just don't know what to do I don't want to cut but I feel like its the only thing that I can do to make me feel better. I don't like to talk about my feelings to anybody except that one girl and I honestly have NO fricking idea why...I hate it. Dont tell me to talk to someone because I won't. So I wont talk to anyone I wont message anyone obviously cutting is the only thing left right?
Why do i want to cut myself again?
i used to cut myself in the arm, a way to self punish my self for being a bad person, i always think i am a bad person although i never did anything wrong. i stop cutting myself few months ago because my friend cant stand me hurting myself, and i have to lie why i have that scar on my arm. i hate to lie to them, so i decide to stop. now i want to start cutting myself again, it is way i cope with stress. i don know how to cope with my stress, the only way i know how balance my emotion is by hurting myself or suppress my emotion. if i experience a little more stress, i will definitely cut myself. what should i do?!!!
I've started to self harm again?
So I first began to self harm a year or two back- but thanks to my little sister- I've stopped. But a while back, I found out she was cutting- and I made her stop; but I guess seeing those cuts on her arms made me want to do it again, too. I've had social anxiety for as long as I can remember, and recently it's been getting worse- and my paranoia is getting bad, too. There are also personal reasons too, but I don't want sympathy or anything, so I won't talk about it. It's not like I'm depressed anything- I can smile and laugh with my friends and family and genuinely feel happy around a few people. I'm not trying to kill myself or anything, even though I occasionally have suicidal thoughts (I won't give in to it, though!). I'm not doing it for attention, either. I don't do it on obvious places like my arms- I do it on my legs and hips since its a lot easier to hide. I want to stop creating even more scars on my body, but I feel like I'm becoming addicted again. Please don't tell me to talk to someone about it or go to therapy, because I absolutely refuse. I want to try by myself first and then if that doesn't work, I will ask for help. So any ideas??
I want to self harm but i'm scared because it hurts..?
I have sat down with a knife or razor pressed against my skin for a long time, i even made a very tiny slice. Please don't give me the 'Don't self harm, it's bad for you' crap. I know it's bad. But i need to. I can't talk to people about my problems, it makes it worse. Now please tell me how to cut myself with the least amount of pain felt. I really want to see the scars to remind me of my pain, to see the life as it runs from my wounds. But not actually feel physical pain because it already hurts too much on the inside
My girlfriend is self harming again?
My girlfriend stopped self harming about 3 months ago. Recently she started wearing long sleeve and jeans more than she used to. I realize it's getting colder so I did really think anything of it. But then last night I found a razor blade in the bathroom. So I decided to ask about the long sleeves and she said she's "cold" and I asked about the razor she said she didn't know. She refuses to wear anything other than a long sleeve or hoodie. I'm worried because when she cuts she's suicidal and her eating disorders begin to develop again. I want to help her but I don't know. Advice please?? Btw she is seeing a therapist.
How can I stop myself from doing self harm?
I cut myself until I was 21yrs old. When I stopped cutting, I basically replaced it with alcohol. I had never drank before and whenever the self-destructive urges hit me, I just drank. While I don't recommend this route, I wanted to use it for an example. Whenever you feel these urges, you must satisfy them. But you don't have to cut. I replaced cutting with alcohol, then eventually replaced alcohol with exercise. Not long ago I quit smoking, replaced cigarettes with Xanax and eventually replaced Xanax with writing. Any time you take something out of your life, the best way to cope is by replacing it with something else. Whenever you have an urge to self-harm, don't try to push the feelings away. You cannot and do not want to ignore them. Instead find something productive (preferably not drugs or alcohol) that will replace cutting but still allow you to vent your feelings. Try writing or working out (they worked well for me) ...chopping wood, jogging, talking with a friend, photography, building something like a model plane perhaps or whatever so; long as you can enjoy yourself and get your mind off cutting in a healthy way.I know how these feeling can either creep up or hit you like a truck. The urge to self-harm is one thing that only it's victims can truly understand. When these urges come, it may initially be difficult to "re-route" your thoughts to something other than cutting, but if you stick with it, it gets much easier as time goes by.Others with self-harm issues have successfully done this and I feel as though I should give a word of warning. If the activity does not at least help you stop cutting, then more than likely you have chosen the wrong activity. When you discover the right activity and stop cutting, you will likely find yourself obsessed with this activity. It's very common for an ex-cutter to become so engrossed in whatever they pursue that it takes up a large percentage of their time and is often viewed by others as unhealthy. It's important that you realize this is perfectly normal and that your obsession will eventually fade. For example, if you start building model cars, don't freak out if before you know it you've built dozens...it's better than cutting and you'll feel a lot better about yourself.