Does anyone else hate living in North Carolina?
lol I live in the southwest Yuma Arizona I cant wait to leave much the similar situation you describe for me here in Yuma az I would prefer to leave and would even consider NC but for the winters which probably are the worst in the world Yuma has the ideal climate summer and winter to me and I would hate to give up such climate, but you can keep Yuma,it is dullsville and the people act so much similar as you describe they do in NC well good luck be blessed be well hope you get to leave to where you want to be
I don’t want to die. I don’t want to live. Is there some place else I can be?
You are not alone with such desire.Benjamin Franklin once said, “Most people die at 25 and aren't buried until they're 75.”Majority of the people you see around are actually only pretending to be alive though they are dead inside.They don’t want to live because they don’t find any reason to live.They don’t want to die because they fear death.Let me suggest you two steps to get over this dilemma.1: Find a Reason to LiveYou lose the joy of living when you don’t have a reason to live.The most unfortunate people are not those who don’t have money.The worst life is for those who don’t have a purpose to live.Most of us feel trapped because we have so many obligations i.e. to take care of our spouse, children, parents , organizations etc.Now imagine for a moment that no one needs you.It does not matter to the world whether you exist or not.No one cry when you die.No one misses you when you are not around.No one needs your moneyNo one want your company.We can all make ourselves redundant in this world if we cease to be useful to this world.We have to give something to the world because we need this world for our existence.Let us find out what we can give to this world and make that the purpose of our life.The day you find this purpose, you will find the desire to live for the world and for yourself.2: Find a Reason to DieWhether you love this world or hate;One thing is certain,You have to die one day.Whether you are scared of death or not;One thing is certainYou have to die one day.Whether you are healthy or you are sick;One thing is certainYou have to die one day.Death is inevitable for everyone who is born in this world.Once you know that death is inevitable, why not find something worth dying for?Why should waste your death?Once you find a good reason to die, even your death becomes meaningful.This is the right place to be.
My life is a living hell and I can't escape.?
My life is a living hell. I wake up and get screamed at by my parents, while they try to make me sit and listen to them try to twist my head while bellowing at the top of their lungs drunk on wine. I'm 19 going on 20. I don't have a job. I'm practically starving. They spend all the money on booze and weed. I can't join the military. I can't concentrate on college. There's drug addicts everywhere who seem intent on crashing at my house constantly. They all are a year younger and are going homeless. They all hate my guts. I got kicked out of the house today for no apparent reason. I can't go back, I've been slandered so much that I can't rely on anyone if I go homeless. Last time I got kicked out I couldn't rely on them. My former friends seem intent on ruining me like dogs. I haven't done a lot wrong, just said a bunch of **** I shouldn't have said. They just don't like me. Can't figure out why. I don't smoke with them. I've threatened to rat them out god knows how many times for slandering me behind my back, and causing me hell. My life sucks, and I get the feeling that I'm going to end up dead before I have the money to enjoy it. Tried contacting my aunt, supposedly they are full with other family members. I get any kind of gain and my family ruins it cause they don't want to see me succeed - out of envy or something. This kind of ****. Girl I'm interested in ends up leading me on for about six months to mess with me. Prime example: I'm sitting in the bedroom, listening to my mom talk about penis sizes while drunk with my new roommates of a month and telling them that she's slept with 47 men. Just to mess with me. I might just pack up **** to North Dakota and stay in a homeless shelter for all I care. Can I get some help before I end up dead or I strangle someone?
Do you ever wish you could logout from Earth and this reality?
Yes. Doesn’t everyone? Isn’t everyone logged out everywhere you look? Virtual reality is replacing reality. Oh well! What can I do about it…my husband got a VR thing and it’s actually quite cool, roller coaster from hell, beautiful mountains with skinny scary bridges, the Grand Canyon..hee hee.I love history and like to dwell on earth’s ancient past. So I read a lot and take an occasional course on archaeology, obsessively study stone age art, seek out cave art and rock shelters, petroglyphs, standing stones. The history of language is a fascination to me and I’m happy to have some background in Latin and Germanics, like to try and decipher ancient dialects to test myself. The Hittites spoke a German dialect! There was a time they were on par with Egypt, ruled what’s now Turkey (oh no don’t let me get started!).Seriously old stuff. I go to anthropology museums, always run to the oldest art in the Louvre, British Museum, the Met in NYC and go crazy over Mesopotamian, Egyptian, Assyrian, Hittite art and sculpture. The older the better, for me. I read a lot about stone age art and peoples. Some of the most primitive ways of life still survive in their original state, see the Saami of Lapland, the Reindeer People. Supposedly Tolkien’s inspiration for the Elven race in LOTR. Now..they are logged out!Anyway, this is my escape, pondering how people must have lived here in Europe, what made them paint those caves like that 40,000 yrs ago in dangerous, tiny deep dark places where they risked their lives-these were not museums! Why? How did they live, etc etc. I actively seek out ancient places, including pagan holy sites in the UK and Europe-i love that stuff.But this isn’t logging out from earth, to me it’s more like logging on. Though much of it occurs in my head and imagination so that is not exactly taking part in the real world. Museum and cave visits count for that, though.Take care.A2A