Do you ever feel like some people weren't meant for any kind of love?
It always seems like I'm disappointed in the end. Friends always go their separate ways. My mother was never a mother towards me. She never gave that love that parents are suppose to show to their children to make them feel safe. I remember, in middle school, being terrified to get off of the bus because some kid always wanted to fight me. I would actually run home and I didn't even feel like I could tell my mom. I eventually did after awhile when I couldn't take it anymore, I ran upstairs and frantically told my mom that some kid outside wanted to fight me and she didn't do anything to make me feel safe, she didn't do anything actually. Now granted I appreciate my mother for providing me food and shelter, but I just always longed for that nurture side of it, too. I had to hold everything in because I didn't feel comfortable to tell my mom anything. I feel like I missed out on high school love, and making those mistakes that make you stronger as a person. But that was partially my fault, since I am gay and I held that in all 4 years of high school. Now I am 20 and I don't even know what I'm living for. I almost feel like I don't even have a family. I feel like whenever I am sad I've always had to deal with it on my own, and I still do. Then I meet a guy that I like more than he likes me. I guess I was just hoping that something would change, but he's just those kinds of people that just want to sleep around. I try so hard to be happy that I almost desperately want to be around my friends all the time, but I know they need their space. I just feel like I'm not meant for love, and I just don't know how to deal with this heavy feeling in my chest for belonging, loving, affection, and intimacy. But nothing ever works out and I always feel like I'm left alone in the end. I mean my father doesn't even want to know me. I just feel completely faithless in everything and all I have to hold onto are my short fleeting moments with friends. I just feel like if a stranger would just randomly come up to give me the biggest hug in the world I would just break down crying. I mean what does someone like me even have to live for? Just myself? Just my temporary happiness? I just feel like what's the point in anything if I'm just going to be alone in the end?
Ever feel that you weren't meant for this world?
Hey there. I'm really sorry 2 hear how ur feeling. R U suicidal? If so call the suicide hotline in ur area right away. They will help u.Hav u considered therapy?It definitely sounds like ur depressed and NO ONE should hav 2 live that way.We live in the US with so many therapists(w/low income scales), medications.Please e-mail me if u want to talk further. You've got to take action to help urself even if it feels scary.It feels like ur gonna be sad forever but that's 1 of the lies depression gives you.You're going to get through this phase.Please read the answer I just wrote before u cuz it's pretty similar 2 ur feelings. :)
Has anyone ever tried to take over the world like people say in movies? Why is that always in movies?
Pol Pot did during Khmer Rouge days Hitler and Japan both did during World War 2 They always make them bad guys who want to destroy the whole world, because if they say "Im going to destroy all of USA" and you live in India, then its not going to scare you and you wont care about watching the movie. If they say "Im going to destroy the WHOLE WORLD", then everybody in the world can relate to it and will want to watch the movie. There is levels of scary, and on a scale of 1-10....destroying the entire earth is a 10.
The use of the word “world” is a bit vague, since in different literature types it can mean planet/dimension/realm/time/space. So I’ll try to be vague as well:If we can imagine unimaginable worlds, then if our world was imaginary and we were still capable of the same type of imagination, then technically, Yes.But in order for you to imagine our world, you’d need to live in an similarly evolved world that has the same fundamental laws of science like gravity and atmosphere or so on.If we imagined a world where everything was made out of bubblegum, and we were always upside-down, it would be important to know what bubble gum is made out of and understand why it can be used as a building material and either inversely affect gravity. And in this world do we still chew bubble gum? Does it prevent the blood from rushing to our head? What are our jaws made out of?While most of us would start imagining something that would probably look like the Magic School Bus invading Spongebob’s insides in a lost never-to-be-aired episode, it is important to realize that our world only seems so realistic to us because we actually live in it.For bigger changes, all you need is more imagination. But while some things in our world might not make sense to someone trying to imagine it— things like discrimination, religion, human rights, poverty— you’d need to have an understanding of what those things are from experience in order to imagine them.So whatever world we would need to live in to imagine our world, probably wouldn’t be that different from our own— whether it was a little better, or a little worse.
Have you ever wished you weren't alive anymore?
I wish i could comfort you,make you believe there is reason to live. I wish i could slap you for wanting to give up so easily. I cant do either of these. But I can tell you that Ive been there done that whole depression ,feel sorry for myself, lost hope, tried to die thing, Failed. got help.got Jesus,got better,got a life that means something . It wasn't no walk in the park .I had to throw away a lot of useless stuff,negative thinking.self centered thinking,expectations on life and others to make me happy.and start taking responsibility for my behavior and for where my life was going. truth is life sucks,its designed to do 1 of 2 things 1. beat you down till you give up. or 2 .make you strong and resilient. look at it like a video game,you are in a strange world where everywhere you turn something wants to attack you.at first you have to defend yourself with your fists but as you learn the game you are rewarded with stronger weapons.then you begin to kick butt and go to higher levels where the obstacles are harder to get through.but you are strong by now and each level has prepared you for the next. Its the same with life.we all have our own monsters to fight,we all have our disabilities.come on youre just on the first level! dont give up yet.step back. stand your ground and fight! find your higher power and pray for strength and meaning for your life. It,s there for any who search. peace><> I urge you to e-mail me if you like.
White people, do you ever feel Beautiful in this world because in scale comparison you are Rare in it?
you know, sometimes I feel really beautiful , Im really up there. you know, everything rare is beautiful. I just think about the population of China & theyve got like 1 billion & 300 million people, not only that but thats just china, but try adding the whole of asian continent & you get like 4 billion! africa has 1 billion, but eurpe only has 731 million & thats including the multicultural immigrants . & then you add latin america who are mostly brown people & besides that I have green eyes & it is the rarest eye color in the world. I feel so beautiful sometimes like I really am the last unicorn something to be awed & inspired at. My grace & courage is a sight to see. my stringy soft hair, green eyes like diamond jade, red cheeks, & “Ideal Human Beauty” remember everything rare is beauiful. even though I maybe be different from most of the world, that knowledge of uniqueness makes me happy.. When I am in Asia, or latin america, people stare in awe at me, they look & they seem something different, something beautiful & most of all something rare & respectable. http://s34.photobucket.com/albums/d115/tamarindo90/?action=view¤t=12007-1.jpg&newest=1 http://s34.photobucket.com/albums/d115/tamarindo90/?action=view¤t=onstreet.jpg&newest=1 http://s34.photobucket.com/albums/d115/tamarindo90/?action=view¤t=green-1.jpg&newest=1
Yes. As a matter of fact, I’ve tried all of those drugs and not fallen into addiction patterns of any sort. Yet I’ve also used all of those drugs at different periods where I DID fall into addiction patterns. The same can be said for other potentially addictive substances I’ve used/abused in my life. I think the dynamics of addiction with regard to behavior and neurophysiology are not well understood as well as more fluid and nuanced than we typically imagine. What I can say with certainty is that no substance use should be taken lightly and that risks will always exist when altering your body/brain chemistry. Knowing these risks, and above all, knowing yourself and your limits are of paramount importance.
Yes. It was my husbands idea. At a party. I was very nervous but excited. Ended up with a well endowed guy.He started slow but eventually was giving me oral which I enjoy a lot. I returned the favor for him. I glanced at my husband and it didn't look like he was enjoying seeing me with the guy. When the guy penetrated me I orgasmed instantly. I was excited and also had never had anyone that large. Another guy joined us. I definitely hadn't planned on that but I didn't know what I should do so I have him oral while the other guy entered me. More orgasms. The guys switched positions. It was really exciting. Never been with anyone but my husband since we were married 15 years before. I really enjoyed the two guy thing. When were done o found my husband and he was red faced and angry. He said I shouldn't have given them oral or let the other guy join. Also I shouldn't have let one of the guys come in my mouth. He was angry I had the orgasms too. Jealous of the guys penis size as well I think as both were quite a but larger than him. I enjoyed it all very much. I'd always been curious about a really large guy and about multiple partners to be honest. I had never been screwed that hard either. I've told my husband I'd like to do it again. He doesn't seem to want to. So I say be careful when doing it. It definitely can cause jealousy and resentment. We are still dealing with both. One of the guys called me. I told him I couldn't do anything unless my husband knew. Its a different world to be sure.
Mongolia, China, Italy, Portugal, Netherlands, Spain, France, Belgium, Germany, England, the United States; honorable mentions to Russia, Japan & Persia.I’m of the opinion that the imperial regimes who invaded and colonized/annexed African, American and Asian territories then tried to maintain and extend that territorial reach truly had global domination in mind. England stands paramount in my mind but Portugal, France, the Netherlands, Spain, Germany, Belgium all had strong ambitions.I also think it would be remiss not to give special mention to the efforts of Great Mongolia who can be conferred the status of holding the largest empire ever. Italy too for the Roman Empire since at some point it’s had vast holdings across three continents and some seas.And the US who through several phases of ethnocentric (and at points downright xenophobic), socioeconomic, sociopolitical and military doctrines have amassed undue or unprecedented hegemonic influence on a global scale that they may be classed as de facto rulers of the world. This hegemonic behavior can be extended to Mongolia & Rome during their epochs/eras of greatness. China is predictably the next hegemony so they too certainly have Global ambitions. Russia too is in this Game and Japan was an early expansive imperialist but the Enola Gay ended that swiftly.Finally, India with its population and ethnic diaspora can also be said to have global influence that could contend for dominance.But I dissemble, I feel your question really is “how many countries have had the hubris to attempt to rule the world?” I would opine Mongolia, The US & England.