What little thing has a stranger done lately to brighten your day?
It happened yesterday. Actually its been happening all week. I hate sending hubby to shopping especially food. He doesn't pick up what I want or else gets the wrong stuff. When he comes home and I see what he brought I had nagging him but I cannot stop myself pointing out what is wrong. Sometimes he looks like a whipped puppy when I am done.I then try to fix the issue by doing all the shopping myself. Problem is…I broke my tailbone last year and have very little cartilage in my knees.Yesterday was the day before christmas eve and I started around 2:00…by the time I was done it was close to 5:30…because of pain I end up slowing down the further I get into the shopping, By the time I made it to the check out counter I was almost crawling . A nice young couple were next in line and I could see the cashier ringing through the groceries but the customer bagging their own. I felt like just leaving my overfilled buggy but this was all the first time I was hosting family dinner and especially christmas. I didn't realize it but I guess I must of groaned out loud. The lady of the couple noticed me barely standing up and sweating profusely. As they were leaving, she said something to her husband, Then she came back and asked if I would let her help bag my groceries. At first I said thank you but I didn't want to delay them. She insisted that they had time and not to worry because her husband suggested it first.My christmas angel's name was Jo and I don't know if she is on here but if she is…thank you from the bottom of my soul!
I'm on the brink of tears, can I vent to you?
I really just want to shut my door and cry in a dark corner. For the first time in weeks, I feel like I'm alone. The worst part is, today iTunes decided to play depressing song after depressing song just to make me feel better. Isn't that nice? To be brief, I really have no TRUE friends. The friends I have in real life think they're my friends but they can't even begin to understand me. My so called "best friend" I've been ignoring because I really would take no bigger pleasure than throwing her off a cliff. The other friends are just really in school friends. I take pride in having lots of online friends but lately, I've only been talking to one person. I like him. I love him. He makes life look a bit more bright. But sadly, he's like the opposite of me. He's popular, cute, awesome... And what am I? I'm just this sad, ugly girl who is so close to becoming emo. I mean, yesterday I thought, "If I'm so depressed, how come I never thought about killing myself?" It actually crossed my mind. SUICIDE CROSSED MY MIND. And it scares me. I'm hoping things will get better, but it doesn't look like things are... And here I am crying in front of a computer. I'm like that FOREVER ALONE cartoon thing that makes me laugh sometimes. I kind of forget about all these problems, but then the guy I talk to was telling me about how all his online friends were spamming him so he might not respond so fast.. I don't understand. I've been told I'm hilarious and just an awesome person but... Why don't I have any friends? I'm shy, but that's not a good enough explanation. Why... Why am I so lonely? Can't this just end already? Can someone brighten up my day? I really just asked to vent all that to you but I don't feel any better. Does anyone want to be my friend? Seriously. I feel awful. :( I really need someone to talk to... Anyone willing to be my friend on AIM? :(
I need good Irish sayings?
Erin go Braugh...Ireland Forever. Beware of the anger of a patient man...Coimhéad fearg fhear na foighde. A light heart lives longest...Maireann croí éadrom i bhfad. Many a time a man's mouth broke his nose...Is minic a bhris béal duine a shrón. Never take advice without a woman's guidance...Ná glac pioc comhairle gan comhairle ban. A (true) friend's eye is a good mirror...Is maith an scáthán súil charad. May God not weaken your hand...Nár laga Dia do lámh. Hunger is a tasty sauce...Is maith an t-anlann an t-ocras. My ancestors were Irish, I've always been interested in Ireland.
What does it mean when someone say you're glowing?
I'm not retarded, I did not know people glow and last monday which was the first day we went back to school, every single person i saw that day was like why is it I'm glowing, but I had no idea what to say because I don't even know what it means?
How do you tell someone they saved your life without revealing everything?
I've been feeling really down lately. I feel like a worthless piece of crap, that no one would ever care about. Anyone who says they do is pretending, but they never say anything because I'm generally pretty good at hiding it (so good that they only diagnosed me with social anxiety, not depression - though I'm pretty certain I'm depressed..). So anyway, today was pretty much the worst day for me. I spent most of it crying and trying to shake the feeling by working out, playing music, self-harm... nothing would make it go away, I just wanted to, y'know, end it all. I had the pills in my hand and everything. I was committed and ready. Then he texted me. He doesn't know about my problems, and I don't want anyone to know ever. But the feeling he gave me, I can't explain. I felt maybe a little bit of happiness, I am rather fond of this boy. He is just always so happy, and I envy him for that. Anyways, I feel he should know he saved my life today.. I just don't know how to tell him. I don't want to tell him all my problems. I don't want to burden others into having to act like they care for the morals of society and whatnot. But I want him to know. Should I wait or tell him now? How?