Why do i want to cut myself again?
i used to cut myself in the arm, a way to self punish my self for being a bad person, i always think i am a bad person although i never did anything wrong. i stop cutting myself few months ago because my friend cant stand me hurting myself, and i have to lie why i have that scar on my arm. i hate to lie to them, so i decide to stop. now i want to start cutting myself again, it is way i cope with stress. i don know how to cope with my stress, the only way i know how balance my emotion is by hurting myself or suppress my emotion. if i experience a little more stress, i will definitely cut myself. what should i do?!!!
I think my self harm cuts infected or need stitching?? please help!! im 14!!!?
im 14 and about 1 week ago i was depressed so i did 5 long cuts on my arm, 2 of them deep. then 3 days after that i noticed that 1 of the cuts was a little wide like opened up, and there was this yellow looking stuff inside it and under that was this white stuff at the bottom of the cut. there was this oily stuff there too. i cleaned all of it off and then about 1 hour latter theres more stuff... the next day i looked and theres less yellow stuff amd looking a little better but it's still a little wide... im worried that since it's still opened and not really healling that well will deseised still get in and infect it?? i washed in the morning with boiling hot water and i was fustraited in the night i got a lighter and put it on the cut and let it burn for a while... i used dissinfectant also. do i need it stitched?? or help cus it's infected or somthing?? im a little scared of it and i don't want to cut ever again!! please help my parents don't know about it! i don't want to show them to get it sticthed unless last resort.. thanks!!!
I cut myself once and I feel like doing it again.?
So like 2 days ago I cut my arm. Not the wrist, the top of my arm. I wore long sleeves and noone really said anything. But the scar is still there and I question it everyday. I feel like I did it because I overreacted and I was wrong for doing it and I told myself things like "How could you hurt something so awesome" and I felt really bad over it. But I was mad again the other day and I was about to take out the razor again and I realized that the last time I did it it felt kind of good, but my arm felt significantly weaker then before (why is that?). So anyway I was going to take it outfor a 2nd time but I said no let me consult YA first. (some people here really care) So my question is, Is cutting that bad? And how can I get rid of anger without it? (also how to make scar go away)
Why do i keep cutting myself i cant stop???
why cant i stop this.. i need help but i cant go get it.. it is just getting worse every time i do it.. i have my whole arm is a big scar.. and every one asks why.. i dont even know.. it just makes me feel better.. i can stop for months and months than i have a lot of bad luck and there i go again.. i have cut my self so many times. and it never works.. well it works just not for good.. and than i do it again and again.. and now i started again.. my stomach is bloody my arms are too.. and i dont want to stop.. why cant i just kill my self and get it over with.. and stop this life that has nothing in it.. and just go to sleep and never wake up again.. why cant i do this.. this is no far.. why is my life so bad..every one else is so good and mine is ****.. good.. i need help i need to get out of this place and just leave..why do i come here to say something may be because no one here knows who i am.. i'm 19 i should not have this kind of problem.. why me...some one help me...
Cutting/ Scratching Myself Again?
First: Everyone who thinks cutting is for attention it is not.. it is a disorder and addiction it has nothing to do with attention in most cases You should not cut yourself you need help before you kill yourself I understand exactly what you are explaining I have wanted to do exactly what you want to my arm so many times but fight it you can kill yourself.. cutting is a very very serous addiction I started cutting myself when I was 13 I am still battling my addiction you have to get away from what you use it will be the hardest thing you have ever done but you really need to get help and talk to someone.. I have a site you can come to and talk all you want feel free to come stop by and take a look around its openheartswithopenarms.weebly.com or ohwoas.webs.com you can also email me ohwoas@gmail.com if you need to talk to someone on the phone there is a number 1-800-dontcut(366-8288) please talk to someone I cant help you much more then that without knowing a bit more so feel free to come email me or talk to me and a few others on my site we will do what ever we can to help you I have been there so many times before it is hard but you need to stop before you kill yourself I know you might want to I dont know. but there is so much to live for in life I will never judge you
How does it feel when you cut your wrist?
You know that feeling when you finally get to pee after holding it in for what seemed like forever? Till you had to do the ‘pee dance’?That relief. The sensation of letting it all out, being able to feel something other than numbness.Depression is a funny little thing. It attacks you with so, so, so much. And then one day, you feel nothing. Nothing at all. Like a blank canvas waiting to be drawn on.So you paint lines across your skin.You feel a pinch. Blood oozes out of your fresh cut. Gosh, the weight is lifted off your shoulders. You want to paint more.And you do.More blood oozes out, slowly but steadily…You catch yourself in a trance. You realize your wrist is full of cuts. A thought like this may cross your mind: More… Where else can I…And something goes off in your brain. You're snapped back to reality. How am I going to hide this from my family/friends/loved ones?Then a pang of regret and guilt may hit you. You think about the faces of the ones who care about you when they see your wounds. Perhaps you panic, perhaps you fall into a deeper pit of helplessness.You go on the internet to search ways to conceal the evidence and you discover that there are so many others like you. Who are in pain. Who are suffering in similar ways. You are not alone.So you pick yourself up and clean the area. You somehow feel better. Slightly better.Then, a day passes. An event stirs you up and you feel ever so overwhelmed.Perhaps. Just perhaps, you think “I want to- No. I need to cut.”.Eventually, you find yourself covered in scars. You wish to stop, but cannot. One simple stroke led to so much more.Tl;dr: It only feels good in that moment, when you are so caught up in the act. Afterwards, I felt mostly regret.
I cut my bf's name into my arm...?
Not normal. I feel like it's normal to have relapses when you're trying to quit cutting, because I fully understand how addictive and hard it is to stop, but when you did seems to deal with more of a weirder approach. Don't take this the wrong way, but when you were stopping, did you ever need an excuse to cut? Like, you just wish something could set you over so you can just do it and feel better again? I used to feel like that anyway, and that may be what you're going through. It's just a relapse, and the relapses (should) get farther and farther apart until you never do it again. This could also be a separation anxiety. If you've ever felt like you were anxious or afraid that he was going to leave you, so much so that you would carve your name into your arm? That may be from a past experience with someone leaving you without closure, or maybe you don't feel close to your parents so you need to hold onto something else, like a boyfriend. I really hope you do stop soon, because you need a healthier stress-reliever than hurting yourself. Take it one step at a time, slowly put down the knives and pick up a sport, or a hobby, something to help you get out of the house and get away from the stuff in your life.