What should I do if I hate my family?
I hate My family too :(I can remember feeling like an outcast as early as the age of 5. I remember my mom beating me and calling me a whore for discovering masterbation. I was 7 when I was ripped out of a room full of kids and verbally assisted by my mother. As the years went on I was Always looked at as the bad apple. At 11 my mom would leave me to watch my two younger sisters who had formed an Alliance against me. It was. Constant bullying. At 12 I was Labeled a slut. I wasnt Even sexually active. At 13 I was A whore and a druggie. Again never even tried either. At 14 a was told to stay home from school because some girls wanted to fight me and the school I went to was full of racists and druggies. Mind you I am A white girl. The racism was coming mainly from a group of Guamanian girls who hated me over a boy. At 14 my moms friend tried to have sex with me. He was 36. Guess who my mom blamed for that? 15 I finally Had sex. I didn’t know how to handle that at such a young age especially with no real sex talk other than ““if you have sex you are a whore and nobody will marry you and you will be a waste”I got Pregnant. I was About 5 months along when I finally Told my dad. He forced me to have an abortion that almost cost me my life. He didn’t care. I had To write goodbye letters to my family. It was constant abuse again. Because now. I really Was a whore to them. At 17 I koved Out. At 19 I got Pregnant. At 20 my daughter almost lost her future. I struggle every day to stay happy and to feel the love of my children and the love of the small percentage of good people still out there. I have No real home and I have No real family. Life is really hard for me right now.
Im 15 and i hate my family?
honestly, I hate my family. I mean it when I say I HAVE NOT BEEN HAPPY FOR A REALLY LONG TIME. I haven't been happy with my life since the 4th grade. My family doesn't even pay attention to my good aspects because their too busy pointing out my flaws (and thanks to them, I completely forgot what im worth). At this point I completely believe them when they call me "worthless". Im honestly so sick and tired of this life I just want to die. I hate my friends, family, environment...life. I want to run away...or die. I cant take being unhappy anymore. My family is so ****** up its annoying. every time I do something good,, yes good, I always regret it because something always ***** up, and then I hate myself for doing something good in the first place. I honestly don't know what I did to deserve this life. I wouldn't honestly be much better off either not existing or dying. its not like I make a difference in peoples lives anyways, im just a useless piece of **** who should of ended her life a long time ago. I know you may be saying "oh you still haven't seen anything in the world, you still have a lot to live for". NO I don't wanna hear the bullshit anymore. Every time I tell someone how unhappy I am with my life they tell me that, but you know what, IM SICK AND TIRED OF FEELING THIS WAY. I know that I should be grateful for a lot of things, and I am, but I have way more ****** up things in my life, then blessings. no this is not a troll letter, im seriously unhappy with my life
What is the purpose of my life if I hate my whole life, work, family, and friend, etc.?
If this feeling has come up now and it's a heat of the moment thing, just don't do anything. Wait it out. Life cannot have a sole purpose. The purpose of life keeps changing as we spend our days. Two extremely similar quotes from recent fantasy books/filmsThe last enemy that shall be destroyed is death. - Harry Potter series also the Bible!!Death is the enemy, the enemy always wins but it doesn't mean we stop fighting. - Game of thronesIf you have no purpose in life start watching fantasy films adapted from books. They have a lot of these messages and hopefully you find your own meaning.Now if this emotion of yours is a long time coming culmination of pent up frustration over a period, you need to act fast. Start making changes. Very often we know what is the right choice and what is easy and we take the easy way out avoiding conflict or trying to keep others happy. This ends up taking a toll on us. Start making the tough choices, stop hanging out with the friends you hate. Find a new job. Confront your family, you need to tell them to change if you don't like their company. Avoid being around them. The purpose of your life should be to make yourself happy, whatever the cost (within legal limitations). If you have put others before you stop doing that. Stop letting people take you for granted. Start saying no if you don't want to do something. If you want things to change you need to do something about it. Don't expect others to know your problems!!
I HATE MY LIFE, MY FAMILY and MYSELF!!?
I've had enough with life, i keep trying and trying to be positive but all i see is a very bleak future. I force smiles every day when I go out. Everything thinks I'm alright...but I'm not alright. I feel torn up inside. I'm tired of people hurting me, playing with my feelings, rejecting me...I don't trust anyone. and worst of all this, My entire life, it's been as if I am either blatantly invisible or painfully obvious to other people. I hate my family because they never agree with me and they always hate on me everything i do they disagree with me. My mom used to shoplift (shes ******* disgusting) and she has said that she stopped and i supposed to forgive her but i will never forgive her she ******* caused me hell as a kid and i was taken away for 14 months and that was heaven and than i came back than it was hell again. My dad is alcoholic and always drinks. I hate myself because i never get anything right and i feel like i don't deserve to be on this earth? and I'm a atheist and my parents are christian.
My life is done now. I hate my family, I hate my school and I hate my fake friends. There's no future for me. How can I kill myself?
If you truly believed that there is no future for you and there’s nothing you can do, your seeking would end and you would find peace.But that hasn’t happened yet, probably because you’re still resisting.Resisting how? By holding out hope of a better you and/or a better life.I once said to a CEO I was coaching: “If you are lucky, life will kill you.”I don’t actually mean that in the physical sense, but rather in the sense of letting go of who you think you are, of letting your ego die.For most of us, we have been culturally conditioned to believe that we are the thinkers and doers of our lives.As a result, the responsibility for our lives rests squarely on our shoulders.So we do the only thing that seems to make logical sense for us: we think more and we do more.As the thinker and doer, they seem like the only tools available to us.The problem with this is that it gets us even more up in our heads.There’s always more to do, understand, achieve, control, gain and lose.There’s expectations, fear, hope, and resistance.It’s exhausting, because it’s a fruitless pursuit.Peace cannot be found by seeking, because seeking is the antithesis of peace.Peace is what we find when we stop seeking, when we stop resisting.The only place peace exists is in the here and now.It’s there for you right now, in this very moment, my friend.Let go of the wheel and dissolve back into life’s natural flow.Life will carry you if only you let it.
I love everything in my life, yet I hate myself?
I have an amazing girlfriend, who loves me and I love, sex life is amazing, and who makes me happy. I have few close friends, but they are truly my friends, and they also make me really happy, as does my family. My work is great, I have OCD and acquired a big obsession for studying for a while, that got me a doctorate, and currently working on getting my second one. I also love researching, which I get to do everyday and get paid for it. I am in the process of buying an huge amazing house, with a huge garden, where to plant lots of exotic plants, just like I've always wanted. Sh.it, even my damn dog adores me, and me her. All of these things make me amazingly happy, but yet I can't stop feeling like I'm a piece of ****, and I don't deserve all this, That my girlfriend is losing her time with me and I should leave her. That I shouldn't have bought my dog because I don't feel that I take good care of her, that I should treat my mom better, that I'm stupid and ugly. yes, I know it's obviously caused in great amount by my OCD, but I've felt this way since I was 18, All about my life makes me happy, but ME. What the hell am I supposed to do.
Im 13, and I hate my life..?
Im a 13 year old girl, and i hate my life. I hate my siblings, they're spoiled, annoying, loud, they dont LEARN. my parents are fighting all the time, and as for my siblings, they dont have ANY patience to teach them how to behave. when i sit and think about my life, i get suicidal. i just feel like, i would be dead already if i wasnt afraid to hurt myself. i dont have anyone to talk to. i have tons of friends.. best friends.. but when i think about it, if i went to any of them they would act concerned when they talk to me, and when they talk to THEIR best friends, they would either call me a drama queen or tell them they're worried about me and just spill out my story to everyone. at my age, ive realized that nobody cares. My parents wouldnt be much of a help either, my mom wouldnt even listen and just say something like, go tell that to your father. and when i would go to my dad he'd say something like "stop with the nonsense they're your siblings, little kids" my brother is 9 and a half, my sister is 3. i hate them both. they wont learn, or listen.. ive considered a guidance counselor at school, but summer isnt over yet, and all they're gonna do is probably send me to some mental place or tell my parents everything, and if my parents find out they'll act all concerned on the phone and then when i get home they'll beat me or something for making the family sound crazy or something. i just dont know what to do, i feel bottled up inside, like i cant tell this to anyone.. nobody can help me.. but i know somebody can. i cant sign up for a psychiatrist, my parents would never allow me to feel like some mental patient, or someone that needs help.. but i need help. badly. i hate this feeling, that of all the friends, of all the relatives, all the people.. nobody can help me.
Should I kill myself? My family hates me, I'm losing all my friends and I have started to hate myself too.
See my friend.If you lost money, you can get it later.If you lost your respect, you can get it later.If you lost your someone special, you can also get another spacial.But once you lost your life, you cant get it anyway.So this time just be a little selfish and live for you. No one can love you batter than you do.If you think you're being tired living this life then just end this journey and go to another place start new life with new hope, new lifestyle, new mentality and a very fresh thoughts but never kill yourself. Forget your bad past and start a new life.Believe me, it works.
I dream and I cried: All my family hate me?
In my life, my mom hates me, she always be mean to me, never look at me as human with feelings too? Never see me like I'm human being too. But she always consider herself the human being with full of heart, she often cry in front of my dad, sometimes to random people to get attention by saying that I'm the cause of her suffering, all very bad stories that when I hear it I burst in tears (only in my bedroom), or sometimes I just hold it when it happen outside, I never want to show anyone that I'm hurt. She accomplished her goal to make me look like a bad person, the worst child my family has ever had in many people's mind, that makes me not want to meet people very much, makes me see my life around people as bad luck (every single day) that I start thinking this is my karma, I feel so unlucky. I dreamt of my dad really mad at me, talking in really mad loud angry voice that makes me really scared and I was crying hard in front of them and I was running from room to room in my house and then cried hard and I kept locking so I feel safe but he kept chasing me and I keep running to another room and lock the door. My oldest sister yelling at me, very angry toward me, I also cried in this war. And when I woke up, I saw myself crying pretty hard too, because I feel like my dream was so true. In my life, I feel like everybody hates me. my friends, family, some of my best friends secretly hate me. I'm thinking why not I just be evil or a satan because everybody hates me in real life