Why do i want to cut myself again?
i used to cut myself in the arm, a way to self punish my self for being a bad person, i always think i am a bad person although i never did anything wrong. i stop cutting myself few months ago because my friend cant stand me hurting myself, and i have to lie why i have that scar on my arm. i hate to lie to them, so i decide to stop. now i want to start cutting myself again, it is way i cope with stress. i don know how to cope with my stress, the only way i know how balance my emotion is by hurting myself or suppress my emotion. if i experience a little more stress, i will definitely cut myself. what should i do?!!!
I want to cut myself again?
I keep stopping but then I'll fight with my boyfriend and I'll want to do it again. It's like the people I love trigger it the most. I've been struggling with t on and off for several years and just want to stop but it's always there whenever I feel lonely or fight with my boyfriend/mom/family. I just feel like such an unimportant human being and I don't know what to do. I lost all my friends . All I have is my boyfriend and most of the time he acts like I'm a bother especially when he hangs out with his friends. I feel like such a .. Bother. Like I'm just a burden to everyone . I'm too emotional, such a crybaby, annoying and dumb. And the funny thing is I really think of myself this way. It's always in the back of my mind yelling either "loser" or waste of space. I don't know why I think like this but I wish it would stop I wish I could get these negative thoughts out my head but EVerytime I try to be happy it just gets pushed into my brain and keeps coming back and I just want it to stop. I don't want anyone to trigger it but they do. Especially loved ones.all I do is overreact and cry over things people don't think is a big deal and I get made fun of for it. I hate myself and who I've become and I'm scared I can't change it .my behavior becomes old to people and they think I'm just overreacting even my family and my boyfriend but there's something terribly wrong with me.
I really want to cut myself again. help?
i know exactly what you feel. to tell you frankly, life is really hard. if you choose yo end yours, it is like raising a white flag. remember that living may be a pain but dying won't take away your problems. if you cut yourself and die, your problems will be buried with you. don't lose hope, give life shot. the heart is a very small organ, do not fill it with hate. you are young, you still have much to learn, experience and discover. someday you will find that one thing that will give you the reason, reason to get up early just to see this special person, or to do this special thing. if you want to talk you can pm me.
I want to self-harm again?
So I stopped cutting early December 2011 obviously. I was hospitalized twice before that. So ya I haven't cut since then. Although I HAVE made an attempt to. I didn't work though because I just couldn't bring myself to do it.....there was not a reason to anymore....The reason I did it in the first place was because I fell somewhat in love with this girl and told her and my life was just terrible (or so I thought) during that, But whatever I couldn't do it. But now Im just crying....always crying for no reason. I use to talk to that girl all the time about this and now she hates me and the more I think about it the more it hurts me. I honestly just wanna slit my wrist and be done with everything sometimes. Im not going to though because I know it would hurt my family......The only reason I am not cutting now is because I have not blade to do it with nothing, But I want to SO bad, And I want to talk to her so bad but she wont talk to me at all ever no matter what I say. I'm over her just in case you were wondering. I just don't know what to do I don't want to cut but I feel like its the only thing that I can do to make me feel better. I don't like to talk about my feelings to anybody except that one girl and I honestly have NO fricking idea why...I hate it. Dont tell me to talk to someone because I won't. So I wont talk to anyone I wont message anyone obviously cutting is the only thing left right?
School makes me want to cut myself again?
Hi. So I go to a public school in a really small town and it makes me want to start cutting again. I used to when I was younger (middle school) but I haven't in a long time and I'm happy about that. Recently, my math teacher has started treating me really poorly. We had a test that practically everyone failed, and I did well on it (72.5, which she later reduced to a 71 for no reason, and when I asked her because I added up everything I got points off for and I should I have gotten the 72.5 on the test, she said I did it wrong.) Anyways, although I did well on the test, she put me in a special help group with people pulling cs in her class and I have an A, even after that grade. She treats me poorly, blames everything on me, and embarrasses me in front of other students. She makes me want to start cutting myself again. Aside from that, I'm going through a rough break up (he basically told me that the entire time he felt nothing for me, lied the entire relationship, and broke up with me over text,) and I'm heavily bullied. Help? Is there anyway I can get my teacher to stop being so mean to me? Has anyone else ever felt this way? I'm in her class until June. :(
What do I do? I want to cut again but I'm not depressed. It just became a habit and I really want it but I don't like the scars.
Distract yourself. Use self-harm harm alternatives, like drawing on yourself with a red water color, drawing a butterfly on your wrist (the place where you cut) and telling yourself that if you cut, the butterfly dies. Hold ice cubes if you want to feel the pain. Snap a hair tie against your wrist.Do something you like, or something you need to do: cleaning, studying, watching a movie, working, cooking, doing laundry… the list goes on.The thing that worked the best for me was throwing out my blade; however I quickly acquired a new one, so it didn't have the effect it could've had. Still, I set a new record by being clean for a month and I'm aiming for a longer period this time.Failures are bound to happen; however it’s a long process of growth, and I wish you the best of luck on your journey.
How do I resist the urge to cut again?
I urge you to tell someone that is in the position to help you with this problem. I commend you for trying to do this on your own, but the compulsion to “cut” is a function of controlling chemical actions in your brain. I can almost guarantee that no one will think the worse of you if you ask for his or her help. In all likelihood they will welcome your honesty and not hesitate to help you. Please read something I wrote the other day in the hope that it might give you a little understanding of how to combat your urges. The human brain actually calls for certain actions. There is a reward system within our brain, which is designed to “reward” you when you do things that support survival and pleasure. This includes behaviors such as eating, smoking and cutting. Your brain reacts when you cut by releasing a chemical known as dopamine. The Dopamine is transmitted as a pleasurable experience, and your brain is hardwired to pursue the pleasurable sensation that it releases. As you repeatedly “cut” it releases more dopamine, and the dopamine transmitters then begin to regulate themselves. As your brain sees the amount of dopamine is too high, it starts removing the dopamine receptors in order to keep you “balanced.” As the receptors become more and more regulated, you need more dopamine to reach the same effect, which causes you to start cutting more to reach the same level of reward as before. This is what’s called reaching your tolerance. If you have less dopamine receptors, then you will have little dopamine activity and you will start to feel unhappy if you don’t “cut.” Now you are in a withdrawal phase, so you begin to cut more to generate the dopamine happy feeling. Once we have gotten to the “fix” stage there are no easy solutions. It now becomes a matter of replacing the cutting with a better (less harmful) substitute. This is where you need the help of others. Please seek help, it will not be denied.
I want to cut myself again or even worse. Advice?
Wow. Okay, how to answer this. I think you really need to get someone else involved in real time if possible, a teacher, school counselor, maybe even a doctor if one is available or your parents will take you. I don't know what sort of relationship you have with the parents so I don't know whether to recommend talking to them or not, but you really need to get some support in getting through this. If you reach out, I am pretty sure other people will help you get through this. Talk to your parents, or a trusted teacher, or a trusted adult relative. Please reach out and let someone help you. You cannot "make" someone talk to you again, but you can try to get help to get your own life back in order and pull through these tough times you are going through. I hope you will try to reach out for help. I'm here if you need someone to talk to. Bill
Why do I feel like cutting again?
Don't. Write down the reasons you believe your on this planet and post it on your wall and I'm not talking about Facebook. Write down your struggles and do the same. Reach out for help because you need it. Not you specifically as if your dependent upon care and even if you are what's the alternative? Being alone?I hate to break it to you but your depressed and suffering. You need help just like anyone else going through tough times. Some turn to drugs, some turn to music and even fewer turn to God, sadly. I feel like this is depressing for myself being that when your alone and about to give in, often it's just you and Him there in some people's last days and I doubt that that brings solace. My point is that your important, your here floating on this giant rock for a reason and you have to find it. You can and will get through this and be reborn after it's subsided. I'm here if you need more help and I pray that you will let go of your burdens so you can learn to fly again with the dreamers out there. (Just FYI though, humans can't actually fly without assistance so don't try this at home haha!) Namaste!
Stopped cutting awhile ago but want to start again?
same here, i cut for four years and stopped because of my boyfriend, then he put me through the most pain i've ever felt and left me.. i felt so angry inside and i felt the only way to get it out of me was to cut myself, then when the Adrenalin died down i felt so disappointed and weak, now when i enter them moods i try my best not to do it but it's as if i'm fighting with my own mind and it makes me feel worse but when you calm down, you DO feel slightly proud of yourself for fighting it.. it takes willpower and talking to a counsellor might help. thousands of people self-harm, you wont get put in a mental hospital, a counsellor won't tell your mum unless there's major concern for your health and safety. but seriously, will-power!