Scorpios: Do you ever feel the urge to "destroy" everything just so you can rebuild it all, on a new base?
you mean the feeling that, since you already started, then why not push it to its limits and see what happens, plutos curiousity and fixation takes him to the extreme and always wants to finish things that it started. in order to heal, we must experience pain to the fullest, otherwise youll just be left wondering.
Why do I keep trying to destroy myself? How can I stop?
Thanks for the question. This one jumped out at me, I will have to feel it through.Last year, December 2016, I was laying on my couch thinking of all the pills in my kitchen cupboard. I have so many of them. I did not want to go on as I was, with my face to the back of the couch with nothing to live for, having done nothing, feeling nothing. I decided to get up, but saw my keys laying on the coffee table.Instead of going to the kitchen, I picked up my keys and left the house in the growing darkness with my handbag. I drove myself to the ER of my county hospital and only then did I burst into tears, telling the nurse that I wanted to kill myself, there was nothing left for me.I spent a week there in their psych unit. But I came within a few steps of destroying myself for good. Only a few steps past my coffee table is my small pantry kitchen, with its arsenal of medication that would have killed me.……………………………I was to go to the hospital 2 more times after that. But not for wanting to kill myself.I don’t want to die. I just want to be fixed right. I want to live.You must look into the mirror of your soul and do some searching there. Why do you want to destroy yourself, to die? Why the compulsion?I always said in past years, I did not want my mother to see me laid out in my casket, crying, wondering where she went wrong that she could not save me from myself. Now, my mother does not know me.Now I say, I must live. I have my daughter and my grandsons and DH who depends on me too but he would never admit it.Sometimes, even if we don’t want to live for ourselves, we must live for others…. a cause… a belief. We have to find something to believe in that carries us forward another day.Please do not wait until the urge to self-destruct becomes too great. If you are feeling this way right now, please dial 911.Choose Life. I chose Life last December, and while Life is never always smooth sailing, there can be periods of happiness. Promise me to think about it.
What is stopping me from killing myself, and how can I go through with suicide?
I really want to kill myself, but I never go through with it. I get very emotional thinking about it, and I cry. I don't know why I get emotional like that. Almost no one would care if I died, or even notice. I think I'm either scared to do it, or I'm pitying myself. What a disgusting thing to do. How can I stop feeling that way? How can I accept suicide and just do it without feeling that way? Should I take seditives up until the day that I do it? I'm off work tomorrow, and I really need to buy a revolver that I've been planning to buy, with hollow points bullets, so a shot to the head would destroy most of my brain. Even if I survived (1% chance), I would basically be a vegetable, so the end result for me would be the same. I want to buy this gun, but I keep putting it off. I don't know what is stopping me. Am I afraid? I'm angry for not having killed myself sooner. I think I'll just heavily sedate myself until I can get my gun. I won't even leave a note for anyone. Why bother? No one would care or understand, and I am a very unimportant person to the world. If anyone can give me information or resources, so I can find peace with dead and suicide, please help me. Do not try to talk me out of it, because I'm not looking for that. I've wanted to do this since I was seven years old. I guess it was only a matter of time before I made it happen.
Why does it feel good to destroy myself? Why Do I enjoy doing things that are bad for me?
First of all , all of that is based on subjective opinion . What is destructive? Why is it destructive? Does it have to be destructive?I thjnk basically ,if it feels good to be destructive than you are lying … or other people are lying to you.Youve been told what is “"destructive “ for you, but yet you continue to do it? That would make you completely fucking insane. Which might be the case. But-Think about it. It's a myth that people do things that they think are completely insane or destructive. Often, they don't understand the consequences . They don't take stealing or whatever other behavior it is , seriously enough. Or they just don't care about it the way that you do , living and paying that ultimate responsiblity.I think reality is closer to, people expect you to agree with them about what is destructive for you. But for you, it isn't destructive. For you it works.For you. It's enjoyable.in other words, it's your truth.People talk shit.People do their truth.In fact one of the only ways that people know for sure when they're telling the truth is when they notice a distinct lack of guilt. That's how they know.If your truth right now is destructive to other people that is unfortunate. There isn't much you can do about it to change it till it causes you enough pain, that you change.First thing is stop trying to stop doing it. Just jump in and go for it. Do it till you get done.
How do I destroy myself and create a new me?
Dear friend,Just look at the ridiculousness of this question. You want to destroy yourself and create a new you. As far as I think, you want to do this because you are not happy with the current you. The desire of creating a new you is of the old you and as you can clearly see that this old you is an idiot and hence must be destroyed, you must not listen him to create a new you.What I am saying is, you’ve done a great job identifying that this “I” needs to be destroyed but do not fall into the traps again. This “I” is posing to create a new “I” which this “I” thinks would be good. Instead you should just see the stupidity of this “I” and give it no importance whatsoever and in doing this, it will be destroyed automatically. At the same time, you also are not creating any new “I” and hence you’ll be slowly entering into the realm of “I-less-ness”. This realm is what is proposed as heaven in all the religions and philosophy.Do not fear because it is the ego that is getting destroyed and I assure you, you need no new you. What you need is freedom from you. Become a witness to the process and enjoy the movie of life, watching it as if it is not yours.Wishing you an entrance to spiritual realm.
Why does overthinking and insecurity ruin everything?
Over thinking leads to depression over time it makes us incapable of doing the things we really want to do.For me it's a serious problemIn school I have only less friends as I always indulge in thinking I rarely talk with anyone as I feel loneliest in the whole school I always over think the things fear has gradually made me alone now I am facing problems in communication as my inner self stops me it has taken a toll on my self beliefAnd I can't convey anything as I tried to but fear and hesitation stops me from it ,Over thinking kills your self belief and makes you isolated in a world of your on thoughtsAnything over is a mess , all of my life's precious moments were destroyed by itSo make and train your mindMeditate ,laugh , live fully and don't isolate your self that will turn the poison of regret around youLive happy and sustained , sai