Did I do the right thing? Please help? Suicidal thoughts on it. No one cares to listen.?
Ever since my dad left my mom has always yelled at me over the things that are wrong with her life whether she loses a job or becomes addicted to alcohol, she blames me for all of it. What happened today I decided I had enough. Tonight I realized i ran out of my sleeping and anxiety medication (sleeping disorder) so I went in her room to check if she had some, waking her up when looking in her medicine drawer. I asked her if she could refill my prescription in the morning and she told me to leave her alone and she won’t be harassed by me. I went back downstairs to look for medicine i can take to get me to sleep when suddenly she comes storming downstairs and yells at me “pick up your mess you ******, you give me anxiety” and she walks back upstairs. I sat there quiet for a minute and something snapped in me and I went upstairs filled up a cup of water and went into her room and splashed her and said ”no one deserves to be treated like that”. She then yelled at me that she’s kicking me out of the house and how screwed I am now that I did that.
Pornagraphy addiction! I need the lord and prayer...?
I'm 17 years old. I grew up in a christian family I do believe in God, but I only know so much about the bible....and I'm addicted to porn..I'm a virgin because I know that sex outside of marrage is a sin and I want to wait..It's sad..I've been struggling with porn for 8 years since I got into it at the age of 9...which I truly regret...now it seems so stuck in my life that it seems like I can't stop...I've repented so many times and tried to cut it off, but it's like it keeps haunting me and comes back...the longest I've ever stopped would probally be about a week and a half...I want to quit and stop thinking about sex and masturbating...In person I'm a descent guy and have respect for women and won't dare to act like a pervert...most women actually find me moral and a gentleman...but my mind doesn't match my personality...I know that it's Satan..but I just keep falling to his stupid tricks..someone please help me..
I feel ashamed at myself because I watch porn. Help? ?
You are the only one making this decision. If you cannot change your thinking and actions on your own, then get help. Why? Because when you get older, have a family of your own and a wife of your own, you will have serious problems if you are still looking at such stuff. You have an addiction, so get help, like everybody with any addiction should do. You have something positive going for you, you see it is a problem and are asking for help. I commend you for that. But do not stop there. Get the help you need now and start making your life more happier and less guilty.
Gay porn addiction since childhood...not what you think?
You could be bisexual. However, Check out how porn can alter ones sexual taste, but not basic orientation. Many straight guys get addicted to gay and transsexual porn, AND many gay guys get addicted to straight, or lesbian porn. The overstimulation of excessive use of Internet porn can alter ones tastes. What happens is that over time the reward circuit of the brain becomes desensitized. It’s an addiction – and as in all addictions users need more stimulation. In order to get the same buzz, users move to whatever is more novel, unusual or kinky to them. Novelty will always stimulate these reward circuits. Your numbed pleasure response has lead you to seek out whatever will get your brain going. It’s all about stimulation, not sexual orientation. Here’s a Q&A, with several links on porn causing change in sexual tastes. It's geared towards straight men, but the principles are the same. "I'm straight, but I'm attracted to transexual or gay porn. What's up?" http://yourbrainonporn.com/ask-us-iam-at... Articles on porn altering sexual tastes - "Losing at Porn Roulette- What you watch may alter your tastes" http://yourbrainonporn.com/losing-at-por... "Porn and Perception: Is Your Limbic Brain Distorting Your Vision?" http://yourbrainonporn.com/porn%20and-pe... It's all about neuroplastic changes in your brain - here's an a book excerpt on it - Doidge on Pornography and Neuroplasticity http://yourbrainonporn.com/doidge-on-pornography-and-neuroplasticity Here's an excellent presentation, by a science teacher, on the effects of pornography on the brain. It explains this escalation problem Your Brain on Porn - Porn Addiction: http://yourbrainonporn.com/your-brain-on-porn-series
My mom keeps getting drunk?
Emawee, you should move in with your dad. No wonder you are so depressed. If she is drinking and blaming you for what the dog did and refuses to do anything about your depression, you should move in with your dad so he can spoil you.