What's wrong with my mind and soul?
I’m sorry. Suicide ideation, I understand that, I have it often when my medications aren’t working efficiently. It sucks: I don’t feel like killing myself but I don’t want to live. BUT these thoughts are a symptom of our illness- you MUST see your doctor ASAP to re-evaluate your treatment. I can assure there is nothing wrong with your mind or soul. You haven’t specified what illness you have but from the medications you are taking it appears that you have a mood disorder like bipolar. Mood disorders such as bipolar and schizophrenia are dysfunction of brain chemistry and function. It is not a cognitive disorder or a character flaw. There also could be other factors for why you are having these thoughts. For example, stress can seriously impact the efficacy of medications as well as changes in your body chemistry as you get older. Go see or make an appointment with your doctor immediately. You shouldn’t have to live with those thoughts and you don’t have to, it is treatable.
What is wrong with my mind?
Checkout these NGOs: CRY, Goonj, Manzil, Aakanksha, Child Helpline - they are all doing good work towards helping people. These are qualified, skilled people who have devoted their lives to a cause. See what they do, see if it interests you. A lot of good work comes out of the kind of anguish you have described and the ability to convert dream to reality.Buy the mobile phone, be in touch with your family and friends. If you plan to become a big corporate head, your focus will be on profit.It's okay to be confused at your age. The thing is not to lose sight of the immediate goals you have. Skilled, educated people are required in order to create institutions that care for people who need it.
What is wrong with my mind?
There is a condition which was widely accepted even a generation ago, and now this concept is almost gone from daily use.It's called a late bloomer.I am one of those.I have gone through periods of rapid learning and periods of just numbness (emotional and mental) in my teens. It was rough. I honestly cannot tell you how I survived those years.With respect to the reading of 100s of books, you can read - that's great. The question is - what are you reading?If a book contains no useful knowledge, this will explain your lack of insight into things - just reading and retaining does not mean you can critically process what you have read. Or there may not be anything of value in that book to start with - just because it's printed/published, it does not make it the masterpiece.You need to become a bit more discriminating in your reading choices.You are 20. You are just starting out life. You are learning - this is a nice way of saying that you have made mistakes and you will make mistakes until you start learning from them. If something is not working for you - by YOUR standards, not by standards of someone else - you need to make changes.I bet you are not even working yet, and job is not about reading and comprehension - otherwise a monkey who can read do your future job - it's about thinking and solving problems.A company won't have a need for another warm body in the office - they will need problem solvers, and this is where you come in.You appear lacking experience in this area, and I strongly suggest that you start looking for an internship (paid or unpaid) in your desired field, and get that experience already!Again, you are expected to make mistakes but you will also be expected to learn from them, and you absolutely must ask questions (there are no dumb questions, and lack of questions mean that you make assumptions about things). The reason is that no two companies are alike - the processes, the terminology and the procedures differ widely from one company to another, even in the same industry - so you must ask and check, and confirm before you start knowing for sure what needs to be done.(This knowing for sure will then become your 6th sense, also known as being an expert in your field).
I think I'm losing my mind. What is wrong with me?
I think that at this point it is not rare that some kind of thoughts like "it is better to kill myself instead of living this life" would start coming up. If this is the case then why not just try to live the life you really want and don't give a f***.I have a few questions for you:1. Are you working on something that you love? Or are you studying just because that is what your parents want?2. Do you know how would you like to live your life?3. Do you need to be accepted by your family, friends or society in general?Take a minute and think about it. If you know the answers then:Start working on something that makes you happy and keeps you curious. Set litle goals and keep working / studying/ enjoying. The only rule is: you must enjoy it.Try to understand what is keeping you away from your perfect life. What makes you sad and depressed? Society maybe? Your family? Wanting to be accepted by someone? Once you know it, decide if it is something you could change (not accept) or not.Then stop the whole process. The life you are living is not worthy enough for what it costs. So you are not risking too much if you choose to make things your own way. What could be worst than doing nothing at all and live depressed forever? What is stoping you from being happy? Delude your family? Not being "normal" for society? Who cares! You could die tomorrow. Get some priorities. You.Your situation has a positive potential, you can do whatever you want and it may turn out really good or not. But if you continue doing the same "regular" things depressed people do, the output can be just one: bad.So, act crazy, don't think about the consequences and live a worthy life within your possibilities. It may not be perfect but at least you tried.
Would it be wrong of me if I changed my mind on who I wanted to be the godmother of my baby?
I was wondering if it was wrong of me to do this. When I was a couple months along I had decided to choose one of my good friends to be the god mother of my baby. She's a sweet friend but she smokes, drinks, and is over stressed with the things that are going on in her life. Some of the reasons why I feel I want to change my mind of having her as the god parent is because I feel she lacks common sense... Don't get me wrong I love her dearly but lately she has annoyed me. I don't know if that has to do with the fact that I'm pregnant or because I'm more alert about her habits and what she says . Most of the time when we hang out together she usually brings up sex, which I don't feel is appropriate to talk about. ( I don't know if she's sex deprived or what. ) And the other day when I went to lunch with her, it had been about a month since I had seen her, and she asked me this question out of the blue, "How do you like your boobs?" In a way I felt offended by this. I know most pregnant increase a cup size or two when they become pregnant, but to be asked this, I thought that was pretty rude... I didn't say anything but said ok. Would you feel offended if somebody asked you this? Also, when I see her all the time she touches/rubs my belly without asking. I told her it annoyed me and she said well at least she's not a stranger and only wants to feel the baby move. Rubbing my belly isn't going to make the baby move... I don't know.. Am I being too irritable about this? I mean she's a great friend, has kids that are almost grown... but there are somet things about her that do annoy me, and I'm sure there are some things that I do to annoy others... but it just comes down to common sense about certain things like whats appropriate to talk about and to respect how I feel and decide on things....
Is there something wrong with my brain?
Okay so i can't think. I forget things really easily and i lose track of where my story/point is going midsentence and a lot of the time it either takes a very long time to remember or i can't remember at all. Also I can't have a conversation with anyone. I try to think of things to say but my mind literally goes blank. I always end upPeople always say simple clever things that i could have never thought of in a million years. Also, I can't get a clear picture in my brain. I don't know how clear normal people's mental images are, but i can't invision things like any detail which can be a problem because i love to draw. When people ask me to think of things on the spot, usually things on a list, i can't remember anything. Like when people ask me what i want for Christmas i literally can't remember anything regardless of how badly I want it. As im trying to think of more circumstances where i forget things i can't even remember. I'm surprise i remembered that many. Please help me. I have virtually no friends because i have such a hard time talking to people and i want nothing more than to be outgoing and able to talk to other people. Do i have a mental problem or something wrong with my brain?
What is wrong with my mind, the simplest things become the most complicated?
Hi there It sounds like you are a deep thinker and highly intelligent. Yet, it also sounds like you could be experiencing anxiety. When thoughts run a mile a minute and we're not really feeling present in the moment (that is, conscious of or connected to whatever we're actually doing at the time) - those are common anxiety symptoms. There is a tendency among some people, at certain times to essentially immobilise themselves with thought. I know because this sometimes happens to me. We can be so focused on thoughts and not focused on actions that we just do the minimum to get through the day. Then after a while, simple tasks can become complicated as we can't decide whether to brush teeth first or get dressed first, etc. It sounds like you could benefit from doing some things you enjoy, to reduce the anxiety. Also, depending how long or hard you're working at the moment, relaxation could be required. If you can focus more on achieving concrete things (outcomes) and less on dreams/ideas, you may also benefit.
How do I find out if there is something wrong with my brain?
First you see a doctor. Most people don’t have anything ‘wrong’ with their brain, and imaging is expensive to look for organic problems like tumors, clots, and strokes.Plenty of people have something distressing going on in their thoughts and emotions. Lots of people in the mental health profession to sort that out. Science is still working on medical tests for all that. Some of it is very surprising, such as an imbalance in gut bacteria being a possible cause of OCD and autism.
What is wrong with my head or health?
When i was 10 i got hit by an illness Encephalitis and it put me in a coma for a couple of months and killed of abit of my brain, as a result of this illness i was left with epilepsy & put on medication for quite a long time, i was slowly weened of it as i got elder & haven't been on it for some time now. But i am still having what i think are fits., im not sure. Im 26 & for about the last 10years i have been having these funny episodes almost quarterly (10-12weeks), i get very hot and bothered & drift out of consciousness, i have to really think about my breathing other wise i feel i will stop , i have to keep pacing up and down or in circles just to try & take my mind out of it as its a horrible feeling in my head that feels like it wants to take over, and if i dint control it. They last anywhere from 30seconds to 3minutes, after wards i will be left with a severe headache, its almost like my brain is bashing against my skull when i move my head. i get 4-8 of these attacks on the one day, am am left in a very fragile state of mind for a few days after wards, and now i seem to to be getting left with shakes and tremors to. These attacks happen without fail every 2-3 months, and are getting on top of me, the doctor knows my past and medical history but cant seem to suss it. anyone got any ideas? I have controlled these attacks for a long time now, but now they seem to be happening when i am sleeping and i damaging my teeth as a result of this. so some help would be good. I wet to the doc not long ago expecting some tests, and just got thrown on 300mg of eppilem, which dint seem to help the problem, so i am of them now. Thank you for your time.