Why do I feel like I don't belong on earth?
Why do I constantly feel homesick no matter where I am or who I'm with? I am not like anyone else and its starting to really get to me. I'm not a loner or anything I have many friends and am able to talk to anyone about anything. I don't feel human though, for some reason I have been studying and watching how humans interact alone and with one another. I have done it since I was little. When I think I am processing so much information it is crazy. I think very fast and before someone even speaks I already predicted what they are most likely going to say based off of probability by focusing on who they are and the individual variables that could effect their response or action(s). I am very emotional as I have been diagnosed with Bipolar 1 disorder but I don't think that's the reason why I feel like I don't belong. Its like I study humanity and they have disappointed me greatly. Not just specific people, all of humanity. Everything just doesn't feel right, it wasn't supposed to be like this. I often act stupid so that I can fit in with people but no matter who I meet regardless of similarities and differences I never feel connected with them. I always want to help people that's pretty much all I do. Everything is about everyone else, I feel like some sort of outside source. I have come to realize that my life has been about 86% filled with unhappy emotions. I wake up each day like my heart is broken. I just want to go home, but I have no idea where home is no where on this earth feels right, it's very strange.
Why do i feel like I don't need anyone?
If people have betrayed you/failed you/never cared deeply for you, then you're NOT wrong whatsoever to feel the way you do. It's okay to me if you're angry at people who were screwed up to you or people in general. For me, I've never really been close to anybody my whole life. I'm already 30 years old although you might think I'm in my middle 20's if you saw me/met me. "Friends" have come and gone in my life. I've had girlfriends (only 2) but they were toxic to me. I've also dealt with girls/women that were immature to me by giving me mixed signals, leading me on and ignoring me when I thought they "liked" me. I've also dealt with stuck-up random women that thought I was checking them out when I wasn't and it's something I still with at times in public. I'm not antisocial though nor do I feel angry at anyone. The only person I'm close to is my 1 year old niece who I help babysit every week on my days off from work. Aside from my niece, I'm not close to anyone else really in my family. Despite helping taking care of my niece and spoiling my niece with toys, books and candy, I'm not close whatsoever to my niece's mother (my sister). I'm not even close to my other sister-both of them are older than me. I don't have a brother just those sisters of mine and my sisters have ALWAYS treated my cousins and their friends better than me. I'm not really angry at not being close to my family or having friends. I just deal with being a loner. I don't think everybody in their lives needs a close relationship or relationship with people to get through life. I've gone 7 years for example of being single. It wasn't my wish to be single for that long but I just deal with it. To me, a person is tough for going through life alone and doesn't want or need a favor from anyone or does something crazy to get others attention. I hope that I've helped answer your question and take care of yourself. I mean it. ~ Alan
Why do I feel like I don't belong with my own family?
What makes you feel you don’t fit into the family?Don’t worry if your answer to yourself is nebulous, because that’s a diagnosis of sorts that you may be a family scapegoat - it happens in all kinds of situations and families - and you are ‘included in’ only if you are useful. Does this happen to you?Is another sibling a favourite?Your problem may have other causes, but I was a family scapegoat and I recognise ‘don’t fit in with my family’ as exactly my situation all my life until I cut contact with my family.Have a look at these two links. The second one is mainly about having a narcissistic parent or one with Narcissistic Personality Disorder, but scapegoating can happen in any dysfunctional family. See if what you read fits your situation, and how to deal with it if it does.:12 Steps to Breaking Free from Being the Family Scapegoat - Glynis Sherwood Counsellinghttp://parenting.exposed/the-fam...Good luck, seek counselling or therapy help if you can, look up online and read up on assertive techniques, and/or how to stop the emotional abuse that usually comes with scapegoating:Dealing with Emotional Abuse: How to Stop Emotional Abuse - Emotional-Psychological Abuse - Abuse | HealthyPlaceAbove all, believe in yourself. If other things fit like you always being blamed or told negative things about yourself, tell yourself every time: ‘These are not my feelings, they are your feelings and I am not responsible for them.’You may not be able to get out of the situation for a while, but plan for it, and as one article ends, “This often results in the scapegoat leaving their entire family behind them and finding a new one, filled with beautiful, emotionally healthy, supportive friends.”Thanks for the A2A and good luck!
Why do I feel I don't deserve anything?
I feel like I don't deserve to be happy, or have anything I want. I can't explain why I feel this way, I am not depressed. I am however a very lonely nineteen year old girl I rarely go out and I just feel like I don't deserve anything. I feel like people never listen when I talk so I just shut up. I feel unworthy of having a boyfriend so I struggle talking to guys. I cry thinking about this sometimes because I know everyone deserves to enjoy life and be happy, I just don't think I do. Help.
Why do I feel like I don't deserve my girlfriend?
I love my girlfriend more than anything in the world and think that she is the most amazing person and to be honest someone I can see spending the rest of my life with. But there are times where I really don't feel like I deserve her. I think that I have to do things or buy her things to make it seem that way. I've told her this before and everytime she says that if anything she doesn't deserve me. But no matter how many times she says it I still can't help but to feel this way. I want that feeling to go away. Does anyone have any suggestions? Thanks to everyone in advance.